Status Updates From 人間失格 [Ningen Shikkaku]

I am just really not as engaged as I thought I was going to be

I was leading the life of a half-wit, and I had quite lost even the energy to think of suicide.

They say that love flies out the window when poverty comes in the door, It doesn't mean that when a man's money runs out he's shaken off by women. When he runs out of money, he naturally is in the dumps. He's no good for anything. Finally, in desperation, he shakes off the woman. The proverb means that when a man becomes half-mad, he will shake and shake and shake until he's free of a woman.

People talk of "social outcasts." The words apparently denote the miserable losers of the world, the vicious ones, but I feel as though I have been a "social outcast" from the moment I was born. If ever I meet someone society has designated as an outcast, I invariably feel affection for him, an emotion which carries me away in melting tenderness.

Is this the book I should be reading mid mental health crisis? Probably not.