Status Updates From Trauma Plot: A Life

Ughghhh this is so good and I’m so sad and frustrated and angry and feeling really seen and such a sense of solidarity and so helpless and ughhggagsshhhhhh

“You know what my rapes taught me? To think of myself as worthless, as nothing, just meat. To hope for death each day and never trust or love other people. There was no fucking lesson in them. Rape is the opposite of meaning.”

😱🤯🤬😢

Writing this book to make room in herself for others. Not writing this book for others.
No origin that precedes trauma.
Hold onto the joys, didn’t put it in the book, because those are hers. She keeps them close.
The trauma she does not see as hers. she can share - not that it is not someone else’s to carry, but it is her separation from it that allows it to live.

Burden of telling the story of rape falls on the victims.
Never telling from the person who raped, what happened and what their perspective is.
Valued hearing someone say “what was done to you”. To not be at fault.
Processing trauma will not turn back time.
Worried that by writing about rape she can manifest it.