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I do t have any idea what I will tell Sam when he is old enough to ask about his father. I’ll say that everybody doesn’t have something & that he doesn’t have this one thing, but that we have each other & that is a lot. And that for a while his father was my friend.

…sometimes only 20 minutes later he wakes up & begins making his gritchy rodent noises, scanning the room wildly. I look blearily over at him in the bassinet & think, w/great hostility, Oh God, he’s raising his loathsome reptilian head again.

His arms & hands still have wills of their own. They float erratically above him, suddenly darting into his field of vision like snakes, causing him to do funny little Jack Benny double takes.