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“Angry?” Luo Binghe viciously spat out two words: “I hate!
“I hate myself!” […]
“I hate myself for being useless. I hate myself for not being able to get anybody to stay. Never… has anyone been willing to choose me.”
― The Scum Villain's Self-Saving System: Ren Zha Fanpai Zijiu Xitong, Vol. 1
“I hate myself!” […]
“I hate myself for being useless. I hate myself for not being able to get anybody to stay. Never… has anyone been willing to choose me.”
― The Scum Villain's Self-Saving System: Ren Zha Fanpai Zijiu Xitong, Vol. 1
“The more they felt, the greater the damage they received.”
― The Scum Villain's Self-Saving System: Ren Zha Fanpai Zijiu Xitong, Vol. 1
― The Scum Villain's Self-Saving System: Ren Zha Fanpai Zijiu Xitong, Vol. 1
“This is roughly the worldview for Neon Genesis Evangelion. This is a worldview drenched in a vision of pessimism. A worldview where the story starts only after any traces of optimism have been removed.
[...]
They say, "To live is to change." I started this production with the wish that once the production complete, the world, and the heroes would change. That was my "true" desire. I tried to include everything of myself in Neon Genesis Evangelion-myself, a broken man who could do nothing for four years. A man who ran away for four years, one who was simply not dead. Then one thought. "You can't run away," came to me, and I restarted this production. It is a production where my only thought was to burn my feelings into film. I know my behavior was thoughtless, troublesome, and arrogant. But I tried. I don't know what the result will be. That is because within me, the story is not yet finished. I don't know what will happen to Shinji, Misato or Rei. I don't know where life will take them. Because I don't know where life is taking the staff of the production. I feel that I am being irresponsible. But... But it's only natural that we should synchronize ourselves with the world within the production. I've taken on a risk: "It's just an imitation." And for now I can only write this explanation. But perhaps our "original" lies somewhere within there.”
―
[...]
They say, "To live is to change." I started this production with the wish that once the production complete, the world, and the heroes would change. That was my "true" desire. I tried to include everything of myself in Neon Genesis Evangelion-myself, a broken man who could do nothing for four years. A man who ran away for four years, one who was simply not dead. Then one thought. "You can't run away," came to me, and I restarted this production. It is a production where my only thought was to burn my feelings into film. I know my behavior was thoughtless, troublesome, and arrogant. But I tried. I don't know what the result will be. That is because within me, the story is not yet finished. I don't know what will happen to Shinji, Misato or Rei. I don't know where life will take them. Because I don't know where life is taking the staff of the production. I feel that I am being irresponsible. But... But it's only natural that we should synchronize ourselves with the world within the production. I've taken on a risk: "It's just an imitation." And for now I can only write this explanation. But perhaps our "original" lies somewhere within there.”
―
“One cannot turn back the clock but one can move it forward.
(Gendo Ikari, Neon Genesis Evangelion, Ep. 22, 23:55)”
― 新世紀エヴァンゲリオン TVアニメーション設定資料集 2015edition [Neon Genesis Evangelion TV Animation settei shiryōshū 2015 edition]
(Gendo Ikari, Neon Genesis Evangelion, Ep. 22, 23:55)”
― 新世紀エヴァンゲリオン TVアニメーション設定資料集 2015edition [Neon Genesis Evangelion TV Animation settei shiryōshū 2015 edition]
“If I can't, then I'll just die.
But if I win I live.
Unless I fight, I cannot win.”
―
But if I win I live.
Unless I fight, I cannot win.”
―
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