

“Am I in the wrong place here, or in the wrong life? Did I not recognize, as I sat in a train that raced past a station and did not stop, that I was on the wrong train, and did I not learn from the conductor that the train would not stop at the next station, either, a hundred kilometers away, and did he not also admit to me, whispering with his hand shielding his mouth, that the train would not stop again at all?”
― Conquest of the Useless: Reflections from the Making of Fitzcarraldo
― Conquest of the Useless: Reflections from the Making of Fitzcarraldo

“love is an attitude toward reality – usually of someone finite toward something infinite.”
― On Grief And Reason: Essays
― On Grief And Reason: Essays

“For a moment the feeling crept over me that my work, my vision, is going to destroy me, and for a fleeting moment I let myself take a long, hard look at myself, something I would not otherwise do--out of instinct, on principle, out of self-preservation--look at myself with objective curiosity to see whether my vision has not destroyed me already. I found it comforting to note that I was still breathing.”
― Conquest of the Useless: Reflections from the Making of Fitzcarraldo
― Conquest of the Useless: Reflections from the Making of Fitzcarraldo

“You should look straight at a film; that's the only way to see one. Film is not the art of scholars but of illiterates.”
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“When you feel perpetually unmotivated, you start questioning your existence in an unhealthy way; everything becomes a pseudo intellectual question you have no interest in responding whatsoever. This whole process becomes your very skin and it does not merely affect you; it actually defines you. So, you see yourself as a shadowy figure unworthy of developing interest, unworthy of wondering about the world - profoundly unworthy in every sense and deeply absent in your very presence.”
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