On Canaan's Side question

I think she dies. Even though she hasn't taken the pills, there is a resolution in the narrative of a peaceful ending that is both a parting and a greeting. She derives comfort from the end since, as she points out, 'the infinite gap between two points, in this instance being alive and being dead, that the mathematicians tell us cannot be closed, would be closed.' And later, 'I carried Bill in my breast...as if I was a little cart for him, to carry his lightest of souls into heaven.' Then she talks of the 'peaceful darkness' that creeps through her kitchen when earlier she remarks on how her kitchen looks wider and brighter as though it's saying goodbye. I like to think of that final, all encompassing darkness, 'so dark that it looked to me, like light', is her calm, even delighted recognition of death.

I took things to mean that Lilly had decided not to kill herself, that for the sake of her memories, and those she remembered, she would live on.

oops for a moment I thought a bear came into her house...