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Irene
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Sep 29, 2012 06:53PM
No I don't but I have friends like you.
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MUWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
What did you expect?- she screamed as the tears started to flow out of control. Compared to the cold rain that was slowly soaking them, the tears burned. Just as his words did.Well.. - he looked so calm as if this wasn't something realted to him- I wasn't expecting that you made such a big deal out of this! - he said with a funny expresion on his face, as if this amused him.
That was it, she raised her head loking as if she were to explode at any minute. - This is it..goodbye Alex, don't ever chase me again, i'm done with you. And so she turned around and started walking trying to leave all that drama behind her. She could still hear him screaming her name, Alex would never expect that someone dumped him. But Rina did, she loved herself now, she didn't need anyone. Sure she was going to suffer but for not doing this sooner.
Routine. Thats all it is. Wake up, shower, go to school go to work, come home, go to sleep, reapeat. Is it so wrong to want something more for my life. To actually have a meaning. Sometimes it gets to me. Sometimes I dont want to wake up. Is that so wrong? How can people judge me for wanting that? How can it be so wrong to always be thinking about take a razor blade and peeling off my skin, just to prove it's not as thick as I like to let on. He tells me all the time that it gets better. He says, "Don't worry, your purpose will find you." What if it doesn't. Not in this lifetime. I want to experience life, not get stuck in the regular trappings that everyone says is life. It's all the same; do as you should: go to school, get good grades, a good job. Get married and have babies. Then get old and die. Is it wrong for me to want something else? Something more? Something different? I want to experience the pain and suffering of others. Not to put myself in an unhappy disposition, but to learn from it. To grow emotionally from it. I want to be in their shoes so I can help them. So I can learn HOW to help them.
Well, that didn't turn out nearly as good as I would have hoped, haha. :P but it was pretty soothing..
