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Dec 22, 2010 01:29PM
Word of advice: Stay out of the drama.
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She needs to Lorena Bobbitt his, uh, ass. Or some other body part.
Clark wrote: "She needs to Lorena Bobbitt his, uh, ass. Or some other body part."That wasn't his ass she took a whack to.
okay, I'm kinda pissed right now.My mom really wanted some boots for Christmas. I went looking all around town, and the weekend before Christmas is not the time to go looking for Wide width, wide calf black leather boots. So that night, I hustled and bustled online, and I found a place that my mom used to order from a lot, and I found the boots. Perfect. Even found a free express shipping upgrade coupon so that they would be here in two days.
They didn't get here yesterday, so I called. I talked to three different people, and they all said my order was rejected, and I was like, "What? I gave you the right information because you took money out of my acct, and it's sitting in a hold account right now." So they gave me a number to call, it was after hours, so I called this morning. The man said that there are some "collection issues" at my address, and until they are resolved, they won't be shipping anything to this address.
I wondered why my mom stopped ordering from here. Bah. I really wanted to get her those boots.
Phil wrote: "Word of advice: Stay out of the drama."Once again, our Phil is too wise.
Stacia wrote: "Clark wrote: "She needs to Lorena Bobbitt his, uh, ass. Or some other body part."
That wasn't his ass she took a whack to."
I know. I decided to show some restraint for once. Don't ask me why.
That wasn't his ass she took a whack to."
I know. I decided to show some restraint for once. Don't ask me why.
and you chose the TMI thread to show restraint?
shh, don't question the irony, Janine. It's a Christmas miracle!
If they HAD been married, wouldn't some of those issues be easier to settle? Finances down the middle, court-ordered child support or alimony/palimony or both, etc.
Emotionally speaking, today was not a good day. I'm counting down the days until I can return to school and a) take my computer to ITS so they can wipe it clean and get rid of this virus b) start therapy c) go to the gym d) GET INTO FUCKING THERAPY.I realize that when I have nothing to do, I get panicky. See, when I have a lot of things to do, I just fall into this sort of slump and I don't want to do anything but lay in my bed, but today I've felt soo....like I could launch into a panic attack at any moment. UGH I just need to get out of this place. I feel like the snow is keeping me captive! I was gonna go to the movies tomorrow with my two closest friends, but one of them is sick, and we have to reschedule, which I don't mind. I want him to get better.
I just feel...oh so restless. Where's Clark so he can tell me to stop whining and go do something about my life?
Southern Fried Britt wrote: "Where's Clark so he can tell me to stop whining and go do something about my life?"If you like, Britt, I can pretend to be Clark and tell you to stop whining...
But honestly, this sounds to me like an age-appropriate panic attack. I can remember having them when I was home on break during college (although, of course, I didn't have to worry about computer viruses on my typewriter or those stone tablets we used to write on).
Knowing this may not make you feel any better--panic still sucks, even if it's fairly common in young adults--but do know at least that there's nothing freakish about what you're feeling.
Thank you, Jonathan. It does help. Most of the time, my melancholy thrives and feeds off of, "NO ONE KNOWS HOW I FEEL. YOU CAN'T UNDERSTAND MY PAIN!" But now, it helps to know I'm not the only one feeling like this.
A lot of these things are just byproducts of growing up.Of course, as we get older, most of us find new and different things to get stressed out about. But generally speaking, as time goes by, you'll become gradually more self-assured and more confident about who you are and what you want to do with yourself. It may take a while, but trust me on this one: it'll happen.
sometimes I feel like I'm years ahead of kids my age, and then when it comes to emotional issues, I feel like I'm years behind and I'm always gonna be playing catch up.
I'm a lot older than you are, Britt, and I still feel the same way: mature in comparison to some of my peers but immature and unaccomplished in comparison to others.Anyway, there's nothing wrong with feeling like you have to play catch up--just makes you work harder.
I'm turning in for the evening. Have a good night, Britt.
Southern Fried Britt wrote: "Where's Clark so he can tell me to stop whining and go do something about my life? "
Here I am. Sorry I wasn't there for you, but I've been busier than a cat covering shit.
Now dry your tears, break up the pity party, and crack open a bottle of suds. The rest of that shit will take care of itself. You'll see.
At your age, don't worry about deep and meaningful. Just settle for a quick, down-and-dirty five minutes.
When I snap my fingers, move on.
Here I am. Sorry I wasn't there for you, but I've been busier than a cat covering shit.
Now dry your tears, break up the pity party, and crack open a bottle of suds. The rest of that shit will take care of itself. You'll see.
At your age, don't worry about deep and meaningful. Just settle for a quick, down-and-dirty five minutes.
When I snap my fingers, move on.
I just popped a bump on the tip of my tongue, and after the wave of pain, there was this amazing rush of endorphins. It was pretty awesome.
I have got to lay off the garden porn. Forty-five dollars for a BEGONIA? Eeesh.
Jammies wrote: "I have got to lay off the garden porn. Forty-five dollars for a BEGONIA? Eeesh."we all have our vices!
Good grief, where was my brain last night? I meant to post this in the Nothing thread, not the TMI thread.I must need to eat more brains.
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These guys are getting their poop in under the wire, too.[image error]
I actually thought I looked sorta kinda decent today.
Me...and people like me. Ugh, I ALWAYS get like this on New Years Eve.I just want to love someone. Like, that's all I want. Is to love and to be loved, but they won't let me love them, and they damn sure don't want to love me. And if that's only because of how I look....that makes me incredibly sad. I've tried being a damn near Puritan about sex, I've tried not caring about who uses my body, and nobody even gives a shit because either way, it's my body, and well, I don't even want it. I don't even care about sex! That's not what it's about for me at all. I only complain about being a virgin to emphasize that I'm not abstaining, I'm not making a statement, I'm not innocent, I'm just lonely as hell.
Every year, I lay in my bed soon after midnight, it's New Years, and I start crying, and then I'm like, "This is the year I'm going to get a boyfriend. THIS is the year. I'm going to change so much, and someone is going to want me, and it's going to be so awesome." Well, here's to another fucking year of being reminded of how I can't even give my love away.
haha, wait, before you yell at me, some of my self-loathing has gone for the day. I got up and started washing clothes.And I should really look at the positive, and see that I have so many things going for me. I'm rebuilding my GPA, my friends are great, I had so much fun bowling and hanging out last night. My family loves the shit out of me. But you know...ugh.
Britt, Barb has it so very right. Being alone is not the end of the world, and it's TONS better than being with the wrong other person.
Barb wrote: "** Cliche warning:Britt, don't concern yourself with other people loving you. Love yourself, that's where you'll find contentment."
Barb is wise.
Okay, and I'm trying to say this so it's clear that I'm not trying to be snarky or anything.I know that being alone is not the end of the world. Like, my mind knows this, and I know and see all of the troubles that relationships have and stuff. But yet, it feels like it's the worst thing ever. Like, I don't know how to love myself. I've tried forever but ever since I've had a sense of self-awareness, I've never loved myself. and then when I try to love myself, there's some voice in my head that's like, "well, no one else loves you, so why should you love you? They love that girl and that girl, and even that girl, but not you. Take their lead." And I can't help but listen to it. I don't see anything about myself that's even remotely likeable by the opposite sex, men or boys.
Have I attracted men? Yes, but it was only on this level of...novelty. Those men didn't like me for me, but they liked me because I'm young, how I presented my sexuality to them, and I'm not stupid, and I was merely a distraction. For awhile, I thought I was okay with just being a distraction, but when you realize that you're seriously attached to someone, but you're just a temporary amusement and an instrument for gratification, that's not a good feeling. And then when you're crying for months because you realize he really isn't going to contact you again, that's an even worse feeling.
I have this fear that I'm always going to be a distraction. He's gonna reel me in with charm, intelligence, eloquence, pet names, compassion, sweet talk, and the pretense of unconditional love, but he can cast in his line at any moment while I'm still hanging on. A distraction isn't someone they fall in love with. It's someone they use while they're looking for someone to fall in love with.
Barb wrote: "** Cliche warning:Britt, don't concern yourself with other people loving you. Love yourself, that's where you'll find contentment."
Ditto! Work on yourself! When you can start accepting yourself the way you are, and understand your faults, and even have humor with them, and enjoy being with yourself, that's when you can love others. Not to have others give you your identity and meaning. And then others will love you for yourself. But gotta start within. If you are not distracting from yourself, then others won't look to you for a distraction. Always remember that you DESERVE what you want!
Southern Fried Britt wrote: "Have I attracted men? Yes, but it was only on this level of...novelty. Those men didn't like me for me, but they liked me because I'm young, how I presented my sexuality to them"Evidence, please. Otherwise, I'm going to continue believing this is purely your interpretation of their interest, and thus just your own feelings being projected onto them.
I'm just an aging hipster doofus, drunk with destiny and drink and living in the past.
This is all outta my league.
This is all outta my league.
Southern Fried Britt wrote: "I know that being alone is not the end of the world. Like, my mind knows this, and I know and see all of the troubles that relationships have and stuff. But yet, it feels like it's the worst thing ever...."Britt, your feelings are normal.
It's so true that our self-worth should not come from other people, but we all live in a world where we thrive on human interaction and emotion. It's not wrong to crave that love from another person. I am not much of a crier, but I remember going through a time after my older son's dad and I broke up when I would watch stupid love story movies and bawl my eyes out wondering if I would ever have something like "that." I look back on myself now and feel like an idiot for not seeing that my loneliness wasn't going to be permanent, but at that time it was hard to see anything beyond the present.
I wish there was a way to convince you that life and love has a way of sneaking up on you when you're least expecting it, but no one ever believes it until it happens to them.
Clark wrote: "I'm just an aging hipster doofus, drunk with destiny and drink and living in the past.This is all outta my league."
Clark you are no doofus. Happy new year.
UGH! I'm gonna be on my period during the first week of spring semester. DOUBLE UGH!That was alllll for clark. :)
