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Trey {Billie Ver.} "You should see me in crown.", Chat Mod
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Nov 13, 2025 12:49PM
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11/13/25
Today wasn't that easy I guess..From Being searched then being blamed for something I never did, to trying my hardest to being nothing in someones eyes. I don't think people realize.. I have no family, I have exactly nobody who wants me, nor even will look at me the same from that night I decided to commit. I will sit silent, I will look pretty, I will be enough. I will be myself, because if my own personality isn't enough for somebody, then they can leave.
I look at the kids with a perfect family, or even a family at all and wish that I had what they did, I wish, I really do. Because If I left this earth, I would have no one whom would show up, Why? Because I let some Flaws and Cracks hurt me, and in process of trying to cover those and glue them together, I hurt those around me because I pushed....I pushed...Then I shoved them off the deep end for my own benefit because I just wanted one person to understand, to be able to side with me in my feelings. But no one could, and no one will..Because I have been through more than any normal teen, More than any adult in that matter.
And my trauma? It makes me, who I am. Even if I need people to like me because it feels as if I don't have my own personality, I just copy those I love in hopes they love me, and I love myself...
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11/14/25
Lords I hate how fast I fall in love with people, he doesn't know every word sparks a hope that he likes me to, but I know he doesn't, I hate it. Every movement, every touch, every sweet word, every nickname he speaks through his mouth drives me insane. I could have anybody else, but I fall in love with the one person whom might not want me! How Funny!
Er ist auf dieser Webseite, ich spreche nur Deutsch, deshalb wird er mich nicht verstehen.
