so how is everybody?? <3

[meelsbookshelf]

hiii!! i have no idea if anybody even remembers this group but it was a small passion project i started earlier this year and kinda abandoned recently due to stress & distractions (a running theme with me and passion projects)

in short, i started college - something i've been looking forward to for months - and it wasn't what i expected at all. i'm tired of constricting myself to fit into a system that doesn't fit me and at the same time i'm so embarrassed i manage to crash and burn at every school i've ever tried to fit into. i don't want to be a failure, and i keep having this image of my empty chair in every class and it literally kills me because everybody else is managing to attend. atm the plan is to switch to an apprenticeship in teaching/education, my girlfriend has been super encouraging and supportive of this and i'm looking into options currently. my dad isn't super keen on the idea atm which has def factored into the stress and anxiety but we move!! i'm just trying to look on the bright side tbh - i'm dating the most incredible person, have had one of the best summers of my life (my prom was def a highlight!!!) and finally feel a little more secure in my own body and mind.

but what about everybody else? how's your reading going, and if u feel comfortable sharing, how's life? i'm hoping to start using this group more frequently again, i hope everybody's doing well and tysm to everybody who kept the chats going while i was away!! :) also are we liking the blog/life update style posts? lmk!!!

[Naimallama&#x1f999;:P]

I'm doing pretty good right now, schools been a lil tough but I think it'll be fine.

[meelsbookshelf]

Naimallama🦙:P wrote: "I'm doing pretty good right now, schools been a lil tough but I think it'll be fine."
aww i hope school looks up for you!! glad you're well angel