Venting/Trauma Dump

[LotheCat!]

It's alright Alchemygoo. I've thought about suicide too, but u really shouldn't do it. U were made for a purpose and yes, I know u might not know that purpose yet, because believe me I don't even know mine yet, but just keep going. U've got this. Stand up for ur self. Even though it might be though u gotta do it.

[Storm The Gremlin Child -Hiatus-]

Don't do it please. I have chronic suicidal ideation meaning I am always suicidal. I have been in and out of inpatient. Are there any ways you can talk to a therapist at all or a guidance counselor? I am here if you wanna learn how to cope with these thoughts

[Alchemygoo]

its fine
i asked 4 help
and im getting it..
its getting somewhat better]
TOUCHWOOD

[⋆⭑★ Kipp ★⭑⋆]

Spoiler bc maybe triggering
(view spoiler)[I legit can't do it anymore. I've talked to my parents, and they've promised to get me help, but I still haven't gotten any. They say "come talk to us, we can help" then tell me I'm stupid and need to get over these suicidal thoughts. That's not how that works. They're always there, and I can't get rid of them. I need to get out of the house more, but I'm not allowed to for safety reasons. I'm done. Living is worse than dying slowly at this point. It's no one else's fault, I'm just a bitch who can't regulate their own emotions. I can't contact my friend when he's awake, and he can't contact me when I'm asleep. My one tie to life is loosening and making me want to go more than ever. I'm also sick of being told "you'll grow out of it" oh yeah? i'll grow out of my fear of grown men (view spoiler)[molesting me (hide spoiler)] even though I've had that fear for 7 years? It'll just go away like everything else is supposed to? I need to grow up, but my childhood and innocence isn't coming with me. (hide spoiler)]

[LotheCat!]

Kipp don't do it. I never shared my suicide thoughts with my parents because I felt Theye'd act that way. but look I'm not much help, but u can still talk to me. my pms are opened and if u ever get off gr or I get off gr u can have my Email.

[⋆⭑★ Kipp ★⭑⋆]

Thank you Lola. That does help actually. The only reason they know is because I actually tried, so, it couldn't really be avoided-

[LotheCat!]

Oh, I was saying don't kill ur self. But yeah u should only talk to people about that stuff if u fully believe that they aren't toxic or won't exploit ur info.

[✪ JY ✪]

aw im sorry that's happenning to you kipp defiantly don't do it idk if this will help much but when I sometimes have similar feeling I usually try to distract myself or find something that might make me happy maybe a new hobby or going out somewhere like going for a walk to the park? and sometimes talking to other people(that arent my parents)or sometimes just hanging out with my friends-if its possible :)

[⋆⭑★ Kipp ★⭑⋆]

Thank you both. That really helps

[LotheCat!]

no problem dude.

[Koelkat]

So I’m not sure what’s happening.

Within the last month(?) I’ve been feeling really nauseous when I go out to eat. Like, the day before yesterday, we went out for my mom’s birthday dinner and I found I couldn’t even eat the saltine crackers at the table. And today, we were going out to check out a store we really like and I found I couldn’t eat what we’d picked up for car picnic.

It just seems like when it comes to eating out in public, even in the safety of my mom’s car, I can’t eat. I feel like I’m going to be sick. And I feel so bad because we were supposed to have a fun day and I ruined it.

If anyone knows what’s wrong with me or has had a similar experience, please tell me. I’m usually an aware person of my emotions but with this I feel so lost.


Thank you for reading ❤️❤️❤️

[LotheCat!]

maybe ur just sick

[Koelkat]

I thought that too but when I’m at home or literally anywhere but a restaurant I feel instantly fine. One of my theories is anxiety, but I have nothing to be that nervous about

[Nikolai !!]

I'm like tweaking out with my emotions as of now.

I've been single for about 2 months after my 1 year and half relationship and I feel like I'm having a crush on my best friend. I love him so much because we've been friends since my 6th grade year (He's a grade above me but 2 months older than me). My 7th grade year he moved like 3 hours away but we've been texting since. until the summer it was like every 3 months we would just suddenly spam each other like we talked daily and then he sent me a long text asking us to talk more because he missed me so much and a lot of other sweet stuff.

So now we talk every single day. And he's just so sweet and kind. He promised that as soon as he gets his driver license he was gonna visit me and start going to my competitions. We call each other husband and apparently he talks about me to his parents and friends. Today he promised me figures of two characters I love so so much for my birthday gift.

Last week I kind of realized that I have a crush on him, but I don't want to confessed because it could strain the relationship. I haven't seen him in three years and I just miss him so much. IDK WHAT TO DO ABOUT MY FEELINGS😭😭

[LotheCat!]

sorry, I don't know how to help. I've never been good with this kind of stuff.

[✪ JY ✪]

hmm u guys still talk right? even after not seeing him in three years?

mabye u could confess ur feelings cause it sound like he might potaintially feel the same?
but if he doesnt then it might make ur friendship a bit awkward or sm.

[Alchemygoo]

tw: Rape, abuse

Only yesterday a bunch of boys entered the girls washroom in the society clubhouse with a stick to beat up the girls. I was there. They wanted me hurt especially. We could have even been gang raped by those boys! It was so scary.
And they were ready to rape us. I could see 2 boys taking of their shirts telling us to come outside. We 3 girls were locked up inside a toilet stall.
The other 2 girls began blaming me, because apparently I provoked them. I'm more loud, and if I were to say more curvy... I was apparently also showing more collarbone what?
I was also creating a ruckus apparently
apparently.. and this girl, she has been simping for the boy who came to attack and potentially rape us. She was worried that he would hate her now for I created a "problem" for them apparently
they make me sick
And I'm 13! I just turned 13 this august!!

[bookworm ˚୨୧⋆｡˚ ⋆]

omggg goo! i hope your okay 🫶🫶

that’s not good at all and i’m so sorry that happened to you xx

[Alchemygoo]

yeah... the worst part is they are blaming me and themselves...
this is the truth in life..
girls just- ok im not sexist
but those girls are pretty toxic
im gonna maintain my distance
from them and the unknown boys.

i have exams coming up

[bookworm ˚୨୧⋆｡˚ ⋆]

ahhhh i hate people like that hope it gets better xx

[Alchemygoo]

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[LotheCat!]

Alchemygoo wrote: "tw: Rape, abuse

Only yesterday a bunch of boys entered the girls washroom in the society clubhouse with a stick to beat up the girls. I was there. They wanted me hurt especially. We could have eve..."

from the story I would defiantly say it wasn't ur fault. I hope something like that never happens again.

[maja]

it's neither your fault nor their fault. it's kinda toxic because they blamed you because of your appearance. and what's wrong with that one girl because she worried that one of those guys who tried to rape her would hate her because you apparently provoked those guys by your appearance. and i'm sorry but can she even like him after that because those boys wouldn't have just raped you but also that girl and her friend

[Alchemygoo]

maja wrote: "it's neither your fault nor their fault. it's kinda toxic because they blamed you because of your appearance. and what's wrong with that one girl because she worried that one of those guys who trie..."

The worst part is that those boys were something like 16-17 while us girls were 12-13

it feels so weird...
yeah they were js mad at me... but also very scared
and i get it...
after the heat died down, the girl realized that the guy she liked was a toxic ass and she dropped him... but they both are really nice people

the blame came because of the fear, and i'd probably blame me too... if i was younger and just taken over by fear..
It wasnt about my appearance that much
it was mostly about the noise we were creating and how the boys got disturbed or smth

i dont know

i'm scared, like what if smth happens... i doubt the boys let it go, especially after we told the society guard...

[maja]

i wasn't sure if the girls are the same age as you and now that i know their age i think I understand it better because I think if you are 12/13 and are in a situation like that and an older boy who you think is kinda cute is involved you are afraid and try to blame something or someone else because you don't want to believe that that boy who you kinda had a perfect image in your mind would do something like that

[Austin (Weird)]

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[LotheCat!]

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August what's wrong?

[Alchemygoo]

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[Alchemygoo]

Breathe

[Austin (Weird)]

HOW FUCKING DARE I BE MAD AT MY MOTHER I MUST BE HAVING A FUCK TANTRUM, HOW DARE I NOT BE HAPPY AFTER GETTING INTERROGATED OF THE 50th FUCKING TIME TODAY.

[Austin (Weird)]

and she asks why I don't talk to her anymore.

[LotheCat!]

mothers can be like that.

[☆Rory ☆Semi-Hiatus☆~Stupid with Love~Hadestown~]

TW:Suicide,guns and death

(view spoiler)[ So like 10ish years ago today i think makes it 11 years since I lost him. Him is my brother Alexander,he was so joyful,happy always tried to help others around him. I was a younger age,i'm not going to say what age but if yk yk. but back to him,i remember the day like it was yesterday,it was December 28, at like 5pm EST. when he passed away. But before he passed about he,found a gun and shot it to his head. I was the one who found him,blood forming around him,i told him i loved him and everything, but still that doesn't stop someone who ended their own life stop. i just sat there with him when he died, i remember him calling me his little star one last time. His blood leaked into the clothes he had given me so i could smell like him. the blood touched my skin i remember,i screamed and wailed like the little girl i was. i lost myself that day. I miss him. but so he commented suicide,left me alone when he promised me sm. but thats my venting/trauma dump. Thats why i kinda hate christmas since it was his favourite holiday. Last year I got all his jewellery he wore,and i wear them. so ya,thats it ig. (hide spoiler)]