The journal of nightmares and randomness

[Rachael]

about me and my crazy, terrible life

[Rachael]

okay hiya i guess ill tell you a little bit about myself.. i live in the U.S, love the color black, and am a proud twizzaholic (TWIZZLERS ARE LOVE, TWIZZLERS ARE LIFE) and im in choir so ill have random music puns so if it annoys you im sorry

[Rachael]

so if im in a bad or funky mood (which is a lot) im gonna rant.. rant rant rant so if it annoys you im sorry but no one lets me rant to them so im gonna do it here..

[Rachael]

one thing i really dont like about friends is the fact that when two of my friends are in a fight they expect me to pick a side.. WHAT ON THIS EARTH IS THE POINT OF PICKING A SIDE?!?! losing a friend cause two of my friends are being butts to each other? ha yeah no. you guys have fun but im gonna go with Bella Swan and be Switzerland in this kk? great you guys have fun with that..
i mean they may have their reasons and they may be good reasons, but THEY HAVE NOTHING TO DO WITH ME!! i am here to be your friend.. to make you laugh and smile, to hear your rants and be there for you, but im not losing a friend because of you.. i will be your eyes and ears, but i will not be your heart.. sorry not sorry..

[Rachael]

just so you guys know.. if yall wanna reply or saw hi or something like that you can if u wanna i honestly dont mind...

[Rachael]

okay so.. im writing a song about betrayal and stuff called Bottomless Pit and im gonna put it on here soon i hope so we'll see how that goes lol i think i suck at song-writing but i still do it sometimes.. i guess to let feelings and stuff out

[Rachael]

i hate migraines.. i was born with them and unlike Lady Gaga i was NOT HAPPY TO BE BORN THIS WAY!!!!!! lol im practically dead when ever i get one so.. yeah i am kinda part zombie.. yanno the dead part not the ughmm yum yum i eat braiiinnnss part..

[notyourfriend, supposedly dead.]

Racho!!

[Rachael]

okay so i have this thing where i dont know who anybody is and i have never seen wat people call the "Classics" and when im done telling you i give you full permission to just gasp in shock and yell and whatever cause youre gonna freak the freak out. okay here we go...
i didnt know who Michael Jackson was until i saw his funeral on the news...
ive never seen any of the dirty dancing movies
ive never read any of the Lord of The Ring books or seen any of the movies.. same with Harry Potter
who's Patrick Swazye? and Chuck Norris?
never seen i love lucy or breakfast at tiffanys
who are the Beasty Boys? i called Morgan Freeman a girl once... i have no clue who Madonna is or what she looks like...
i have never seen Titanic, but shocker i know how it ends..
so as you can see i have like no life.. lol I DONT KNOW PEOPLE
lol im like Andre's grandma on Victorious.. "I DONT KNOW YOU" *ducks behind something*

[Rachael]

Cαiтℓуn ~Sometimes people can lose their wings~ wrote: "Racho!!"

Caito!!! lol how are youuu?

[notyourfriend, supposedly dead.]

Extremely mad. You?

[Rachael]

Cαiтℓуn ~ Beautiful Times ~ wrote: "Extremely mad. You?"

same why are you mad?

[Rachael]

okay so im a little p-oed cause.. well let me explain..
this past weekend my mom accidently ran over my cat, ran over her head to be specific, and killed her.. and that didnt make me too mad cause i mean accidents happen.. but when my mom told my dad wat happened, he got p-oed.. saying it wasnt an accident and accidents dont happen and all kinds of crap and THAT made me mad cause NEWS FLASH accidents happen!!! i mean a week before that he accidently killed one of our chickens.. but i thought accidents dont happen? i mean to him all that matter are his opinions and his opinions alone and that upsets me.. i mean seriously dad, if you give people advice or rules, try following them yourself..

[Rachael]

just because someone has no hope doesnt mean they are hopeless...

[Rachael]

okay so.. math.. is infuriating.. better yet my teacher is infuriating.. i dont do math cause of that man.. he makes it soooo difficult.. i mean he goes so fast in the notes like we should already know the material when dont know what the knob he is talking about half the time.. i mean seriously.. math is not a "hobby" it is torture.. utter.. torture..

[Rachael]

so.. last night was... bad to say the least..
so for those of you who dont know... my dad is a drunk.. and he gets drunk at least three or four times a week.. and last night it was so badd.. i dont think i should go into details but.. yeah lets just say i didnt sleep last night.. and if i did i cried myself to sleep.. he didnt even let me do my homework and then yells at me when i get bad grades.. so im like so depressed right now and i wish i wasnt at school..

[Rachael]

i officially haatteee spring break.. i hate any break.. i hate anything with the word "break" in it..

[Rachael]

i wish it'd rain..
i wish it'd pour..
so the raindrops could mix with my tears..

i wish it'd thunder..
i wish it'd lightning..
so the booming could drown out my screams..

[Rachael]

so.. im very irritated at the world... at the people on this earth... at my dad.. at the entire universe to be honest.... my dads an ass.. people are stupid.. (except for you guys.. youre awesome)... earth is full of stupidity and despair.. and im slowly.. slowly breaking apart... ready to die yet ready to live..

im wearing a mask.. but every mask has a crack in it.. mine will eventually break.. and what will happen then.. is beyond me..

[Rachael]

guess who just broke their wrist?.... MEEEE!!
two weeks before prom too.. YIPPPEEEEEEEEEE

gotta love sarcasm.

[Rachael]

so my ex is an ex.. yep

[Rachael]

meant to say hes an a** but.. oh well you get it..

[Rachael]

demons are so annoying sometimes i swear...

angels can be snobby though so...

and i am a mixture of both..

now you know what you are dealing with..

[Rachael]

That awkward moment when your father, one of the princes of hell, gets stuck in the body of a cat and just stays there because it's "comfy"

okayyyyyyy.. *looks away to avoid giving him a "you are utterly and completely stupid" look*

[notyourfriend, supposedly dead.]

Racho!

[Rachael]

CAITO *hugs*

[Rachael]

dear whatever bit my foot,
I'm sorry i didn't kill you.

Love,
Rachael

[notyourfriend, supposedly dead.]

Rachael {Angel with a Demon's heart} wrote: "dear whatever bit my foot,
I'm sorry i didn't kill you.

Love,
Rachael"

XD

[Rachael]

Cαiтℓуn the Perso wrote: "Rachael {Angel with a Demon's heart} wrote: "dear whatever bit my foot,
I'm sorry i didn't kill you.

Love,
Rachael"

XD"

I have a sore on my foot because of that little bugger

[notyourfriend, supposedly dead.]

What was it?

[Rachael]

Cαiтℓуn the Perso wrote: "What was it?"


I dont even know!! that is the thing! it was just a short little creepy crawly THING!

[Rachael]

oh and it was black

[Rachael]

like my soul

[notyourfriend, supposedly dead.]

O_O It wasn't a spider right?

[Rachael]

lol no im sure it wasnt that

[notyourfriend, supposedly dead.]

Okay good!! XD

[Rachael]

Cαiтℓуn the Perso wrote: "Okay good!! XD"

IKR?! dont want to die from spider poisoning

[notyourfriend, supposedly dead.]

Asdfghjkl nooooo!!

[Rachael]

lololololol asdfghjkl is an accurate description of how i yelled when it bit my foot

[Rachael]

CHRISTMAS MUSIC

[notyourfriend, supposedly dead.]

Nooo wayyyyy too early for Christmas music!

[Rachael]

NOT IN CHOIR ITS NOT

[Rachael]

dude.. i was singing Christmas carols in July.. I'm ready for this

[Rachael]

yesterday.. suuucckkeeeddd

[Rachael]

so yesterday.. i sat on a desk.. the legs folded into the desk itself.. i fell.. and it fell.. on my ankle.. and my ankle is swollen... ggggreeeeeeeaaaaattt.. i have been compared to Fat Albert it is not even funny...

[notyourfriend, supposedly dead.]

O.o

[Rachael]

Cαiтℓуn »--Upside of Down--« wrote: "O.o"

lol ikr? I don't even know who Fat Albert is..

I'm going on a diet

[notyourfriend, supposedly dead.]

If a desk breaks, it's the desks fault not you.

[Rachael]

true.. i mean i sit on it like that every day and it had never done that before..

[notyourfriend, supposedly dead.]

Exactly.