chrys ; archived

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❄ sʜᴀʜᴅɪᴀ ❄ ʰᵒʷ ᵃᵐ ᶦ ᵍᵒᶰᶰᵃ ᵇᵉ ᵃᶰ ᵒᵖᵗᶦᵐᶦˢᵗ ᵃᵇᵒᵘᵗ ᵗʰᶦˢ ❄ ᴇsᴍᴇʀᴀʟᴅᴀ ❄ wrote: "You're asexual? I was wondering, how do you know if you are? I've been thinking that I might be for a while, but I'm not sure. None of my other Internet friends are asexual, and I don't have anyone..."

Yep, and I just figured it out last year. The idea of loving someone romantically just sudden seemed insipid and dull to me. I also can't find anyone who attracts me; sure, I find some aesthetically pleasing and others worthy of admiration but nothing romantic, not even a crush nor an urge or anything :/

Familiar feelings or anything or... ?

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❄ sʜᴀʜᴅɪᴀ ❄ ʰᵒʷ ᵃᵐ ᶦ ᵍᵒᶰᶰᵃ ᵇᵉ ᵃᶰ ᵒᵖᵗᶦᵐᶦˢᵗ ᵃᵇᵒᵘᵗ ᵗʰᶦˢ ❄ ᴇsᴍᴇʀᴀʟᴅᴀ ❄ wrote: "ᴄʜʀʏsᴛᴀʟʟɪᴢᴇ wrote: "❄ sʜᴀʜᴅɪᴀ ❄ ʰᵒʷ ᵃᵐ ᶦ ᵍᵒᶰᶰᵃ ᵇᵉ ᵃᶰ ᵒᵖᵗᶦᵐᶦˢᵗ ᵃᵇᵒᵘᵗ ᵗʰᶦˢ ❄ ᴇsᴍᴇʀᴀʟᴅᴀ ❄ wrote: "You're asexual? I was wondering, how do you know if you are? I've been thinking that I might be for a..."

The whole 'aesthetic-but-no-crush-thing', as you placed it, is actually one way to generalize being asexual. Sooo I guess you are asexual? :P

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❄ sʜᴀʜᴅɪᴀ ❄ ʰᵒʷ ᵃᵐ ᶦ ᵍᵒᶰᶰᵃ ᵇᵉ ᵃᶰ ᵒᵖᵗᶦᵐᶦˢᵗ ᵃᵇᵒᵘᵗ ᵗʰᶦˢ ❄ ᴇsᴍᴇʀᴀʟᴅᴀ ❄ wrote: "I am? Hmm, makes sense. I've been thinking that I am ever since I found out what asexuality was about six months ago, but I've never really had anybody asexual to talk to about any of this.

Anywa..."

OMG, so sorry for the late reply; I went offline last night before I could see this. I went through the same, actually, except I had a friend who was asexual so I figured it out kinda fast.

To be honest? NO I'M NOT XD It's very hard to bore me, really. You can talk to me about the color white and I wouldn't even yawn. I'm doing fine here actually, just got well from a mild fever so I'm pretty happy :D And you, how you doin' there?

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❄ sʜᴀʜᴅɪᴀ ❄ ʰᵒʷ ᵃᵐ ᶦ ᵍᵒᶰᶰᵃ ᵇᵉ ᵃᶰ ᵒᵖᵗᶦᵐᶦˢᵗ ᵃᵇᵒᵘᵗ ᵗʰᶦˢ ❄ ᴇsᴍᴇʀᴀʟᴅᴀ ❄ wrote: "Well, today's my last day at school until the half-term break, which is good. We get nine days off, plus half a day after school, so 9 1/2 days. Totally haven't counted."

Wow, that's really cool! I'm envious, haha! Our break's still about three or two weeks away in here. So have plans about what you're gonna do this coming break of yours?

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❄ sʜᴀʜᴅɪᴀ ❄ ʰᵒʷ ᵃᵐ ᶦ ᵍᵒᶰᶰᵃ ᵇᵉ ᵃᶰ ᵒᵖᵗᶦᵐᶦˢᵗ ᵃᵇᵒᵘᵗ ᵗʰᶦˢ ❄ ᴇsᴍᴇʀᴀʟᴅᴀ ❄ wrote: "Probably just spend all my time on Goodreads. This website has taken over my life."

Hmm, I can see that- haha! It's pretty much the same with me, too.

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❄ sʜᴀʜᴅɪᴀ ❄ ʰᵒʷ ᵃᵐ ᶦ ᵍᵒᶰᶰᵃ ᵇᵉ ᵃᶰ ᵒᵖᵗᶦᵐᶦˢᵗ ᵃᵇᵒᵘᵗ ᵗʰᶦˢ ❄ ᴇsᴍᴇʀᴀʟᴅᴀ ❄ wrote: "Agreed. I spend far too much time on Goodreads."

Same, same. Once I get home, it's this website I open as soon as possible.

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❄ sʜᴀʜᴅɪᴀ ❄ ʰᵒʷ ᵃᵐ ᶦ ᵍᵒᶰᶰᵃ ᵇᵉ ᵃᶰ ᵒᵖᵗᶦᵐᶦˢᵗ ᵃᵇᵒᵘᵗ ᵗʰᶦˢ ❄ ᴇsᴍᴇʀᴀʟᴅᴀ ❄ wrote: "My parents don't like the amount of time I spend on here, but I don't really have anything else to do.
Although my friend is lending me some books, so I will have stuff to read."

Hmm, my parents really don't have anything to say my killing time on the laptop as long as I do school stuff at the same time and take breaks every two hours, haha. Ahh, good for you- it's really hard to find books here in the Philippines, to borrow or buy :/

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— Unpopular Opinions On Animated Films ::
October 02, 2014 / Thursday

Am I the only one who thinks Frozen's overrated?

Alright, alright- I love the part where Prince Charming isn't actually Prince Charming, the true love referred to in the movie isn't a romantic one but one about sisters, and the songs there but that's it.

I, honestly, still find Lion King better within Disney's films.

But talking outside Disney, I'd watch Kung Fu Panda 1 and 2, and How To Train Your Dragon 2 (haven't watched the first film yet) over Frozen any day.

Though that doesn't mean that I don't hold any kind of respect or admiration for Frozen. I mean, it's a good movie, actually way better than Snow White, Cinderella, Aladdin, etc. But I don't think it's the best animated film out there, as many people say.

Plus, the Lilo & Stitch film beat Anna and Elsa about that sisterly love first.



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❄ sʜᴀʜᴅɪᴀ ❄ ʰᵒʷ ᵃᵐ ᶦ ᵍᵒᶰᶰᵃ ᵇᵉ ᵃᶰ ᵒᵖᵗᶦᵐᶦˢᵗ ᵃᵇᵒᵘᵗ ᵗʰᶦˢ ❄ ᴇsᴍᴇʀᴀʟᴅᴀ ❄ wrote: "I am going to agree with the Lilo and Stitch thing, I adored the Nani/Lilo relationship.

Honestly, I think I'm the only person in the world who doesn't like the Lion King. I can't even explain why..."

Well, I guess we found ourselves both on the same side of a coin and opposing sides of another, haha XD

*blushes* Thank you. Feel free to, I don't mind as long as people ask first.

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❄ sʜᴀʜᴅɪᴀ ❄ ʰᵒʷ ᵃᵐ ᶦ ᵍᵒᶰᶰᵃ ᵇᵉ ᵃᶰ ᵒᵖᵗᶦᵐᶦˢᵗ ᵃᵇᵒᵘᵗ ᵗʰᶦˢ ❄ ᴇsᴍᴇʀᴀʟᴅᴀ ❄ wrote: "Oh, yeah, sounds about right. Coins. Awesome things.

Thank you!"

No problem! :3

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— Familial Stupidity ::
October 02, 2014 / Thursday

OH MY GOD. JUST BECAUSE YOU HAVE THE SAME SURNAME, DOESN'T MEAN YOU'RE INSTANTLY BLOOD RELATIVES.

I MEAN, SAME SURNAME BUT YOU HAVEN'T EVEN MET NOR CONVERSED ONCE? YOU ARE NOT RELATIVES JUST BECAUSE YOU HAVE THE SAME SURNAME.

OH WAIT, LET ME JUST WRITE HERE WHAT THEY SAID:

"FOR THOSE WHO HAVE THIS FAMILY NAME IN THE WORLD, IT MEANS WE ARE RELATIVES."

THE WORLD? REALLY? WHAT THE ACTUAL HELL?

THIS IS SO WRONG ON MANY LEVELS AND THIS KIND OF STUPIDITY JUST MAKES ME WANT TO HIGH FIVE YOUR FACES WITH A CHAIR.

AND I'VE ABSOLUTELY NO PLANS TO EXPLAIN TO THEM THIS SHIT- I DON'T THINK THEY'LL EVEN BE ABLE TO UNDERSTAND, NOT WITH THAT LEVEL OF STUPIDITY.

IT'S JUST SO FRUSTRATING, UGH.

HERE'S TO ME BEING BRUTALLY HONEST.



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❄ sʜᴀʜᴅɪᴀ ❄ ʰᵒʷ ᵃᵐ ᶦ ᵍᵒᶰᶰᵃ ᵇᵉ ᵃᶰ ᵒᵖᵗᶦᵐᶦˢᵗ ᵃᵇᵒᵘᵗ ᵗʰᶦˢ ❄ ᴇsᴍᴇʀᴀʟᴅᴀ ❄ wrote: "How common is your family name, because that would make things awkward if your surname was Smith or Jones?"

Hmm, within my country, it's very common. But when talking outside my country, it's very rare. Thank God for that.

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— Story Ideas ::
October 03, 2014 / Friday

So my fever came back this morning. Which meant I had to stay in bed 'til I got well. Luckily, doing so came with the blessing of being given an opportunity to be able to think in peace and be able to scheme and develop my story ideas.

Here's one of my realizations: I'm really fond of ruining my characters' lives by fabricating major plot twists and tragedies.

At the moment, my brain's flooding with 22 outlined ideas and a hundred more concepts that just need more planning. Gaaaah... Really feeling anxious about writing them- but at least they're not cliche so I got that going for me, which is nice.



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❄ sʜᴀʜᴅɪᴀ ❄ ʰᵒʷ ᵃᵐ ᶦ ᵍᵒᶰᶰᵃ ᵇᵉ ᵃᶰ ᵒᵖᵗᶦᵐᶦˢᵗ ᵃᵇᵒᵘᵗ ᵗʰᶦˢ ❄ wrote: "I feel your pain.
The current idea in my head is really good, but I think it'll turn out rubbish.
And I take a certain pleasure in ruining characters's lives."

WOHOHOHO XD Anxiousness + insecurities, and pleasuring in bringing ruin to our characters lives? Hmm, I really think we'll be getting along with each other really well *laughs for 5 years*

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— On The Verge ::
October 10, 2014 / Saturday

Oh God, I think I'm about to collapse. I'm just doing my best to keep my shit together right now- wouldn't really want someone in my household staring at me weirdly when I just burst into tears before I sob my heart out.

Here's what's happened: I just deleted my RP blog on Tumblr.

Yes, it sounds like a daft reason for having teary eyes but I had that blog for months. It's also not just some blog out there in Tumblr, definitely not.

It's where I had over 10 characters that I, myself, made with all my heart, where I had precious memories with friends, had fun on, and many more.

"So why did you delete it?"

Because I abandoned it sometime during August. Why? Because no one longer paid attention to me. And if there's something I can say from that experience, it's that loneliness is such an overwhelming feeling.

It even hurt more when I tried to look for someone to talk to yet I found none. It seemed like no one cared.

So I made up my mind today to just delete it since whenever I come across it, all it brings back are heartbreaking memories. It's nothing more but a shell, an empty one.

The hardest part was clicking the 'Delete' button. I enjoyed spending time with people there, really, but my characters... they just had to go along with the blog. That's how much I had to let go just to heal; I had to kill my characters who were a part of me.

The only thing I'm keeping on Tumblr now is my personal blog.


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Thank you. I just have a lot of things going on in my mind right now so.
We reblog each others posts then add our reply after our partner's.

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Simple, you just make a post, type in your starter, then place your partner's URL in the first five tags so they can see it. Once they do see it, reblog then type in their reply, the thread's started.

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Well, it's definitely fun but at the same time hard and possibly pressuring. Also, the way people RP in Tumblr is more complicated than here on this site, haha.

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No problem, I'm always happy to help. I'm glad for you too!

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— Past Midnight ::
October 29, 2014 / Wednesday

Wow, look at me.

Already 2 in the morning and instead of being in bed, which where I was supposed to be since hours ago, I'm still sitting in front of my laptop scrolling down Tumblr's tag of the MCU while listening to Of Monsters And Men's songs.

Well, better spend this time past midnight awake rather on Halloween. I certainly don't want to be awake to witness the fucked-up shit going on around my village during the same time.


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The homes around mine start playing this ultra-creepy music exactly when midnight strikes and it just sends chills up your spines. Then somewhere between 1 to 3 in the morning, some people get the guts to scream out loud for no apparent reason and it's just to scare some people shitless. Don't even make me start about the stories and folklore people talk up and about here- Filipinos are superstitious as hell, no matter what time, period, or era it is. Just, ugh.

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Terrible is an understatement, believe me. You wouldn't want to be anywhere in this country during Halloween.

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Thanks a ton for the tips. Like seriously. I'll do about anything to keep the jeeps and creeps away during this occasion.

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It's already very cold in my room, haha. Thanks a bunch again.

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falalala shad
omg you're so cute ♥ ditto to you as well, dear friend

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did you just uptown funk me up
ahem, you ♥
those lyrics apply to u too

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who's watching who tho
eheheheheheh

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you are uptown funking me up
i'd rather kiss you (in a platonic way ofc haha)
you're perfection's definition
srsly tho ♥

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♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

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follows you on tumblr

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fOLLOWS YOU BACK AT THE SPEED OF LIGHT

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WHAT NO MAN WHAT THE ACTUAL HECK NO

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THAT SOUNDED SO WRONG I JUST
QUeEN GOD DANG IT

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CASUALLY FREAKING OUT BECAUSE THE PRINCESS JUST FOLLOWED ME LIKE WUT

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CALM DOWN MAN IF I'M A PRINCESS THEN YOU'RE A PRINCESS TOO SO SHUSH

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WHAT THE FUCK NO I AIN'T NO PRINCESS.
IM THE MOTHEREFFIN EMPRESS.

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omfg
empress trisscar
perf

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xD
had too, im sorry
psh i know i am but what are you?

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brah, it sounded so perf when i said it tho
like 'empress trisscar' omg
IMMA MADAFAKEHN QUEEN xD

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LMAO WHAT A TRIO OF RULERS WE MAKE

[(trisscar)]

ahaha thats tru.
OMFG SHAD YOUD PE PERF
YAASS. ALL THREE OF US RULING THE WORLD MOTHEREFFIN FAIRLY

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i wouldn't be surprised if shad's name simply became 'khaleesi'
and i'm betting everyone would know who it is

MADAEFFIN JUST AND FAIR RULERS

and someone pls help me rid me of writer's block, i've been spending the last month writing only one type of prose

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i'll be waiting for that day
that's pretty much you in a nutshell brah

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your blog says resources
but your heart screams arctic monkeys

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your blog's made for resources
but your mind says arctic monkeys
and your heart screams otps

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*jumps off the boat*

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das why i'm jumping off the boat asap
*swims away*

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Would you like this journal archived?

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No? I'm still using it for conversing with people, instead of doing that in my actual journal. Rather, may I have this deleted instead?