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[Deepthi]

:)

Sort of, I guess... I've been continuously reading and listening since... um, 7 o'clock? Since the last four hours. So better, I guess :)

[Empress X]

Good. :) I love starting off the days with books/music. 😊

[Deepthi]

Aah! I really want to try BTS's Boy With Luv's dance step, but I can't do it :/
At least not if I don't want a ligament tear :'(

[Deepthi]

Empress E. wrote: "Good. :) I love starting off the days with books/music. 😊"

Yup! :D

[Empress X]

:/

[Deepthi]

:/
But i'll just try it next week xD

[Empress X]

:p
Just don’t hurt your leg more!

[Deepthi]

:P
I won't :)

[Empress X]

Ok.

I’m watching you. :p 👀

[Deepthi]

Alright XD

[Empress X]

:P

[Deepthi]

:P

[Deepthi]

Wth.... my own bias is bias wrecking me XD
With his highnotes!

[Deepthi]

Kim. Seok. Jin.
Stop bias-wrecking me!!! T-T

[Deepthi]

Grandma, you don't have to tell the whole family that I haven't showered yet!!! -_-

[Deepthi]

Ah, can i go hide under a rock please???

[Empress X]

Sure I’ll come with.

[Deepthi]

Why?

[Empress X]

Not like anyone would notice or care.

[Deepthi]

They would! :/

[Empress X]

Eh. :/

[Deepthi]

Yes! :/

[Empress X]

Whatever.

[Deepthi]

:/

[Empress X]

:p

I’m gonna force myself to sleep so I can see my friends soon bye! :)

[Deepthi]

Goodnight! :)

[Empress X]

:) Have a good day!

[Deepthi]

Thanks! Have a good time tomorrow! :)

[Empress X]

I will. :)

[Deepthi]

:)

[Deepthi]

Wait, I'm listening to a new song of BTS and... why does Jin's voice creep me out..? It sounds waaay different...

[Deepthi]

It sounds.... painful...

[Deepthi]

CAN I GO AND KILL THIS PERSON?!
They said, ''Jin is now officially approved by BIGHIT". They'd commented this under the same song. *fuming*

[Deepthi]

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[Deepthi]

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[Deepthi]

The lyrics are too painful in this song....

[Deepthi]

Jamais Vu

[Deepthi]

I don't know what happened but... i was just watching videos and listening to music, and suddenly i started feeling really lonely...

[Deepthi]

I still am..

[Deepthi]

*sighs and curls up on the bed*

[Deepthi]

I guess i need to let this out...

[Deepthi]

*Sigh*

[Deepthi]

Will it be a good idea? Idk

[Deepthi]

But I'm doing it.

[Deepthi]

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Honestly speaking, I'm getting sick of it all. My dad's stressed because of job, and I'm the only person he can scream on, I guess. He can't go and do it on my mom. So fine, come on and scream on me dad. I apparently am just your venting machine, isn't it? And then, after sometime, he comes hugs me and does everything. It's fine the first or second or eve the third time. But not always. He always aims on my deepest insecurities and lashes out. Forgiving him every time he does that... it's not easy.

He can't stand weakness. And I am a disappointment anyways. Anyways, coming back, he can't stand it. Every time I told him I was tired, he was like, "I'm not going to baby you. Be strong." Can't he see that I am trying my best! He doesn't even know about anything except the sprain sort of thing that's happened to my leg. I'm hiding the cuts, my hand, and everything! The exhaustion and the headaches! And then he comes and he's like, "Come help me. Can't you even help? All you do is sit with your book." Dad, I had two hours of Karate and two hours of Badminton along with one hour of Guitar. Not you. And I guess I can ask for some time off for myself after all of those. Not to mention you enrolled me for Swimming too which starts on 22nd.

And I'm just... feeling too lonely nowadays. Like unwanted. Of course, I'm not surprised, but... why do people always have to win your trust and then break you in the end? They don't care. No one ever does. No one ever cares if you're there or not - if you're breathing or dead. And I just get this weird feeling at times. Like something is dragging me down. It's some sort of vibrating sort of thing. And I just want to sink through the floor. Like right now. I don't care if I'll survive the fall, let me just fall...

And there's another thing bothering me since days... My online sis - I haven't spoken about her here in a very long time...
We used to interact a lot with PM's, and I started noticing that GR deletes messages, so I asked her if I should create a secret group for us to chat. She agreed, and it was fine for few days. But then, she was like, "I recently re-connected with an old friend of mine, and I asked her to join GR. Could I invite her here?" I really wanted to say no, because I had created the group for the both of us!! Slightly selfish, I know, but hey, there are somethings you aren't comfortable telling in front of some random stranger whom you met just a few days back and know nothing of. So yeah, I faked my enthusiasm and all, and yeah, the new person joined. But trust me, it's not easy to talk when the new girl's too there. And now, my sis is like, "I met another friend, could she too join?" And the new girl's also like, "Could a good friend of mine too join?"
Sure, everyone, join the damn group! Wait, why don't we change the fucking group's settings from Secret to Public? You'll at least achieve something from it!!

And there's a guy from India who's here on GR annd I'm getting a really strong feeling that he's crushing on me! *glares at the bio of that person* He sends like, five to ten messages every single time I don't respond, and it's really irritating.

And it feels like everyone' either rejecting me or something like that. That I'm a nuisance and that I'm just bothering them. Alright, I'll stop. And maybe soon enough, I'll leave. Everyone, let's hope that, soon, Deepthi disappears from GR forever!! At least one nuisance less, isn't it?

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[Deepthi]

(view spoiler)[And I love the fact that it won't disturb anyone even if I left Goodreads :) (hide spoiler)]

[Hallie]

Well, you wouldn't disturb anyone, but you would leave you true friends sad. (view spoiler)[Or dead. (hide spoiler)] Sorry about your dad. Pretty much a similar situation here, so I get it and it sucks :( But, I do think you should tell your friend how you feel about her inviting others to something you'd like for yourself. It's not selfish of you to ask for some privacy for just the two of you, and if she wants her friends, she should make her own group to chat - not let them invade yours. Sorry, but I just thought I had to say something.

[Deepthi]

Dead? *raises eyebrow*
It really does :/
But I... I guess I'm scared of what she'll say..

[Deepthi]

And there's no need for you to be sorry.

[Deepthi]

So... Hallie, I was sort of thinking about what you'd said.. There's only one problem: How do I tell her without, you know, hurting her feelings?

That's the problem :/