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Dead Leaves Wishing For A Spring Day ((Spring Day))
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Deepthi
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Jan 26, 2019 12:47AM
And ehy the heck is she acting like this?!! She pushes me away whenever I ask for a hug, but expects me to hug her when she comes! I too have feelings for your kind information!
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It's becoming difficult to grasp that ARE people who care...
Deepthi wrote: "It's becoming difficult to grasp that ARE people who care..."It's becoming difficult after what all is happening at school and home...
Hey Deepthi...Don't be sad. My mother sometimes does that too, and when she comes to hug then sometimes I do that too. It'll be fine.
As for school, it's just one week, right? It's good to give some time to grandparents too. Maybe they were looking forward to this one day.
Hey AqsaShe does that every single time... :(
But yeah, I hope so too...
It's more of a... pooja... I don't know what to call it in English. It's like, you basically go to a temple (our place of worship), go and sit there for hours (my grandparents'll be doing the thing... they'll be busy), and come out. Frankly speaking, there's nothing to look forward to... Our houses are really close, and I'm also meeting them today...
Apurva wrote: "Why did you change the name? PM me if you need to talk, okay? *Gives her a hug* Did you watch the Republic Day Parade on TV? Gandhi was everywhere!"Idk... Just felt it's more suitable... It'll soon go back to Spring Day.
Thanks :') *hugs back*
I couldn't :(
Apurva wrote: "Deepthi wrote: "And my mom's not allowing me to talk to my cousin. She speaks to everyone whenever she wants, why can't I do that?!!"Oh, I understand how you feel. I've been there."
*nod*
Apurva wrote: "Deepthi wrote: "Apurva wrote: "Why did you change the name? PM me if you need to talk, okay? *Gives her a hug* Did you watch the Republic Day Parade on TV? Gandhi was everywhere!"Idk... Just felt..."
:'D
Apurva wrote: "Deepthi wrote: "Hey AqsaShe does that every single time... :(
But yeah, I hope so too...
It's more of a... pooja... I don't know what to call it in English. It's like, you basically go to a temp..."
Exactly!!!
Apurva wrote: "What did I tell you? I already have spectacles and I still have to year my eyes out at the sulfur in the air from all that smoke?!?! C'mon religion, see some sense!!!!"True...
Change in schedule: I'm not going!!! :'D
So, just a few minutes ago, I was trying to log on to gr and was typing the addres (goodreads.com), and I typed "goodreaads.com" by mistake. Guess where it took me xDA Korean site.
Apurva wrote: "Deepthi wrote: "Change in schedule: I'm not going!!! :'D"But I'm going to Bharatotsav in Red Fort now... After lunch. But I don't want to go! Mum's forcing me!"
Aw...
Sorry for my late reply :(
I was studying
Apurva wrote: "Deepthi wrote: "So, just a few minutes ago, I was trying to log on to gr and was typing the addres (goodreads.com), and I typed "goodreaads.com" by mistake. Guess where it took me xD..."
:'D
Apurva wrote: "Deepthi wrote: "Change in schedule: I'm not going!!! :'D"Lucky!!!!!"
I hope...
I confronted G_______ day-before-yesterday...
I really wanna remembering what happened day-before-yesterday...
Lol... The lyrics of the song I'm listening to right now is: "It's alright, now count 1,2,3 and forget, erase all sad memories, let's hold each other's hands and smile"I wish I could do that right now...
At least something to make me cry...
VIXX Eternity:https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cIfoN...
This song sounds happy, but it's actually so sad...
I love this:I’m OK
Don’t comfort me
You don’t have to have pity on me
You don’t have to stay with me, I’m fine
I’m OK Don’t worry about me
You don’t have to mind about me
I’m used to be alone
I’m OK
I don’t want to hear any hopeful words
I can hardly fall asleep because the reality is too difficult to handle
I tried to find things that can fill me up, which eventually turns out to be drinks
I become indifferent to any situations
Even though I’m better off by myself, loneliness hits me from time to time
Even though I want to do many different things, I become lethargic
My answer will always be a huge smile if anyone asks how I’m doing
I feel like everyone has turned their back on me
I feel bad for myself, I feel so small
When I become lonely, if you ever witness my tears, please walk past by me
I’m OK
Don’t comfort me
You don’t have to have pity on me
You don’t have to stay with me, I’m fine...
I’m OK
Don’t worry about me
You don’t have to mind about me
I’m used to be alone
I’m OK...
I don’t want to hear any hopeful words
Why is everyone making it a big deal when I’m fine?
My breakup was a bit tough, left me with a small scratch
I know it is going to be way better after a day or two
Silence means “please be happy”
Tears mean “I truly loved you”
I won’t die just because she left me, so please don’t look at me as if you’re looking at someone who’s dying...
Just like when the wind blows, the autumn leaves tremble
and just like when the waves occur, the ocean trembles...
I trembled because the love past by me
If you ever witness my tears, please walk past by me
I’m OK
Don’t comfort me
You don’t have to have pity on me
You don’t have to stay with me, I’m fine
I’m OK
Don’t worry about me
You don’t have to mind about me
I’m used to be alone
I’m OK...
You’ve broken every piece of me when you laughed out as if my sadness didn’t mean anything to you
Leave me alone, don’t come to me
I don’t want to start anything when I know you’re going to leave me in the end...
I’m OK
Don’t comfort me
You don’t have to have pity on me
You don’t have to stay with me, I’m fine...
I’m OK
Don’t worry about me
You don’t have to mind about me
I’m used to be alone
I’m OK...
You don’t know anything
Don’t act like you know everything
You say that this is all for me
Well what can I say
I want to be alone so please leave me alone...
Change it to my situation like... This:I’m OK
Don’t comfort me
You don’t have to have pity on me
You don’t have to stay with me, I’m fine
I’m OK Don’t worry about me
You don’t have to mind about me
I’m used to be alone
I’m OK
I don’t want to hear any hopeful words
I can hardly fall asleep because the reality is too difficult to handle
I tried to find things that can fill me up, which eventually turns out to be nothing
I become indifferent to any situations
Even though I’m better off by myself, loneliness hits me from time to time
Even though I want to do many different things, I become lethargic
My answer will always be a huge smile if anyone asks how I’m doing
I feel like everyone has turned their back on me
I feel bad for myself, I feel so small
When I become lonely, if you ever witness my tears, please walk past by me
I’m OK
Don’t comfort me
You don’t have to have pity on me
You don’t have to stay with me, I’m fine...
I’m OK
Don’t worry about me
You don’t have to mind about me
I’m used to be alone
I’m OK...
I don’t want to hear any hopeful words
Why is everyone making it a big deal when I’m fine?
The end of my friendship was a bit tough, left me with a small scratch
I know it is going to be way better after a day or two
Silence means “please be happy”
Tears mean “I truly miss you”
I won’t die just because she left me, so please don’t look at me as if you’re looking at someone who’s dying...
Just like when the wind blows, the autumn leaves tremble
and just like when the waves occur, the ocean trembles...
I trembled because my friend went past by me
If you ever witness my tears, please walk past by me
I’m OK
Don’t comfort me
You don’t have to have pity on me
You don’t have to stay with me, I’m fine
I’m OK
Don’t worry about me
You don’t have to mind about me
I’m used to be alone
I’m OK...
You’ve broken every piece of me when you laughed out as if my sadness didn’t mean anything to you
Leave me alone, don’t come to me
I don’t want to start anything when I know you’re going to leave me in the end...
I’m OK
Don’t comfort me
You don’t have to have pity on me
You don’t have to stay with me, I’m fine...
I’m OK
Don’t worry about me
You don’t have to mind about me
I’m used to be alone
I’m OK...
You don’t know anything
Don’t act like you know everything
You say that this is all for me
Well what can I say
I want to be alone so please leave me alone...
Deepthi wrote: "Change it to my situation like... This:I’m OK
Don’t comfort me
You don’t have to have pity on me
You don’t have to stay with me, I’m fine
I’m OK Don’t worry about me
You don’t have to mind ..."
It sounds really silly...
Apurva wrote: "Turns out Bharatotsav was pretty good!"That's good!
Deepthi wrote: "I'm dreading tomorrow..."*hugs* If I may ask, why?
Deepthi wrote: "I really wanna remembering what happened day-before-yesterday..."Deepthi wrote: "I confronted G_______ day-before-yesterday..."
I guess I've got to explain what happened... *sigh*
G_______ and I sit together for Computer Practicals. That time, I decided to ask her why she was ignoring me. She told me that she wasn't ignoring me, and couldn't find me because I'd gone for music practice. I asked why didn't she talk to me in the first period (Kannada), and she said that I didn't like to turn then (personal reason). I asked why couldn't she even wave after that, she didn't reply. I tried to ask again asking her why she didn't try to talk to me in the third period, because it was a free period and everyone were talking. She again didn't reply and she avoided my eyes...
I'm scared...
KC wrote: "Deepthi wrote: "I'm dreading tomorrow..."*hugs* If I may ask, why?"
*hugs back*
School...
I've again got to sit alone for almost 6 hours...
Deepthi wrote: "Deepthi wrote: "I really wanna remembering what happened day-before-yesterday..."Deepthi wrote: "I confronted G_______ day-before-yesterday..."
I guess I've got to explain what happened... *sig..."
I'm scared and angry on G_______...
I seriously shouldn't trust people I guess...
And M___________ and told me last week that she would call me... Why had I looked forward to it lol...
I added few more poems to that collection which is there on my profile page
Deepthi wrote: "I added few more poems to that collection which is there on my profile page"A total of ten poems lol...
I can't believe it...
Some of them are really horrible though.
I'll go to bed now, but I'm not guaranteeing my duration of sleep. Especially with the increased number of nightmares I getting and my increased insomnia.
Please don't be surprised if you get a ghost who's spamming this thread at 3am
Anyways, I couldn't come online because my parents were awake :/
The weather outside is gloomy...Just like my mood
Time to go to that hell-hole again...Bye everyone...
Apurva wrote: "Deepthi wrote: "Anyways, I couldn't come online because my parents were awake :/"Poor you. *Pity hugs Deepthi*"
Don't pity me please.... It's one of the things i hate - pity.
Apurva wrote: "Deepthi wrote: "Time to go to that hell-hole again...Bye everyone..."
Bye...."
I'm back! :'D
Apurva wrote: "Will you check out my poem? It's called "Stay... If You May""I'll do it after replying to my sis on GR :')
Apurva wrote: "Deepthi wrote: "Apurva wrote: "Deepthi wrote: "Anyways, I couldn't come online because my parents were awake :/"Poor you. *Pity hugs Deepthi*"
Don't pity me please.... It's one of the things i h..."
:')
Apurva wrote: "Deepthi wrote: "Apurva wrote: "Will you check out my poem? It's called "Stay... If You May""I'll do it after replying to my sis on GR :')"
Okay!"
Thanks for understanding :')
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