Yoite's (AKA Kanda) stuff.......sorry

[Sonebiyinepu (they/them) *bamf*]

yo, I guess I just type random stuff about my life and whats goin on here... derp

[Sonebiyinepu (they/them) *bamf*]

Well oki



I'm a fan of -

• Doctor Who
• Star Trek
• Sherlock
• Eureka
• Torchwood
• books
• reading
• writing
• singing
• How to Train Your Dragon 1 & 2
• birds
• pit bulls
• cats
• D. Gray-Man
• Attack on Titan
• Black Butler (manga only)
• Angel Beats
• Princess Jellyfish
• Raptors (as in the types of birds (owls, hawks..))
• TUMBLR (me-> http://matt-smith-is-hot.tumblr.com/ )
• petplay
urrr....

[Sonebiyinepu (they/them) *bamf*]

So the first time I was sexually assaulted was in my science class in the 9th grade. The boy would touch me in ways I didn't like but craved.... I feel messed up... I want someone to hurt me and I know this boy was in the wrong. Once he tried to get me to touch his penis.
The other time was when I was walking back from PE super early. I guy from the weight lifting team coming up and nearly pinned me to the wall. Some how I got away. He didn't follow. When he had me pinned by his huge body his friends snickered....
I haven't told family, only a few friends I trust over everything.... so umm ya... these are stupid compared to actually being raped, I should not complain....

[Sonebiyinepu (they/them) *bamf*]

cut last night *sighs* I had gone a whole month plus a few days clean and I messed it up and I know restarting wont do shit because I have a feeling it's going to get a whole lot worse....

[Danielle]

I accidentally clicked on this sorry but please don't cut!

[Danielle]

Sorry I should just leave and mind my own business...

[Sonebiyinepu (they/them) *bamf*]

it's fine, you may read, people will and I like you as a person from just us talking, it's fine

[Danielle]

Aw thanks you seem very nice too :D

[Danielle]

I'm sorry to hear of your bad past/present but please remember that even people who don't know you care about you and don't want you hurt

[Sonebiyinepu (they/them) *bamf*]

*shrugs* it's hard to trust when people are untrustworthy

[Danielle]

That only applies to some people. Where there is bad in the world, there is more good waiting for you.

[Sonebiyinepu (they/them) *bamf*]

I dunno

[Danielle]

How old are you if you don't mind me asking

[Sonebiyinepu (they/them) *bamf*]

17

[Sonebiyinepu (they/them) *bamf*]

I'm a bit old :P and happiness is overrated

[Danielle]

Cool. So what's up?

[Sonebiyinepu (they/them) *bamf*]

ceiling... O.o

[Danielle]

I finally met someone who answers the same as I do...

[Sonebiyinepu (they/them) *bamf*]

I do it all the time XD

[Danielle]

Haha same it annoys my friends :P

[Sonebiyinepu (they/them) *bamf*]

idk

[Tia, Nothing good happens after 2 am]

Kanda, it does get better. Take it from someone who's been in your situation. I'm 17 as well and I've been sexually assaulted before. I was young and didn't know any better. It wasn't until later that I realized that what they were doing was wrong on so many levels. Please don't cut yourself. Everything will be good in time

[Sonebiyinepu (they/them) *bamf*]

I'm going crazy, my parents have forgotten I have depression for some reason and they don't give one shit anymore

[Sonebiyinepu (they/them) *bamf*]

fasting tomorrow YAY

[Amaris]

I'm sorry to hear about what happened to you. This is weird, but you actually just saved me. when I was a little girl, I was sexually assaulted but didn't understand what was going on and, I cringe when I say this, I thought it was alright. What's messed up about it is that it was a girl and a close friend.

[Sonebiyinepu (they/them) *bamf*]

I...save you? wows, umm okay, I'm happy to help :)

[Sonebiyinepu (they/them) *bamf*]

hit 129 lbs yesterday YAY

[Lee]

You are not alone. I too have depression, and try to take one day at a time. So hard. But knowing we are not alone is a big help to me.

[Sonebiyinepu (they/them) *bamf*]

So my mum bought pizza for dinner tonight, and ONE piece is 320 cals, like WFT that's nasty, I'm having ONE piece and that's all, that should put my net cals at 400 or so, and I'll take a walk and make sure I'm constantly moving in order to burn most of that off.

*flips table* so, I think I'm back in the 120's and I hope to hit 100 lbs, or close to 100 lbs by x-mas (it would be the best gift ever to be exactly 100 lbs on x-mas day OMG)

[Lee]

Thinking of you and wanting the best life you deserve.
You are special no matter your weight. so special.

[Sonebiyinepu (they/them) *bamf*]

Lee wrote: "Thinking of you and wanting the best life you deserve.
You are special no matter your weight. so special."

thanks love

[Sonebiyinepu (they/them) *bamf*]

my hands are freezing, prob cause of lack of cals. I hate calling cals food because food sounds nice, and cals (calories) doesn't, food isn't nice, food is calories and calories make you fat fml

[Sonebiyinepu (they/them) *bamf*]

DAMNIT

why cant I control myself!?!?!?!?!??! WHY AM I SO FAT?????? I BINGED on the PIZZA, 5 pieces! 5!!! that's like 1,650 cals right there, I've aten 1,800 cals (sih) today FUCK ME AND MY FAT SELF AND MY STUPID INABILITY TO CONTROL MYSELF

[Lee]

You are beautiful Yoite, take a deep breath and breathe.Food is a part of life, substaining us to live and enjoy life. Live life Yoite, take a look around and live. As I live this moment for you.

[Sonebiyinepu (they/them) *bamf*]

I KNOW OWN HOW TO TRAIN YOUR DRAGON 2!!!!!!!!!

[Sonebiyinepu (they/them) *bamf*]

my dad's going to kick me out...I'm going to call the police and get myself into psych word because if I don't I'm going to kill myself....

[Lostinwonderland]

<.<

[Sonebiyinepu (they/them) *bamf*]

I fucking hate food........

[Sonebiyinepu (they/them) *bamf*]

Lostinwonderland wrote: "<.<"

Do you have a prob?

[Sonebiyinepu (they/them) *bamf*]

[Sonebiyinepu (they/them) *bamf*]

I just love these gifs :D

[Sonebiyinepu (they/them) *bamf*]

[Sonebiyinepu (they/them) *bamf*]

oh, oki urm, thanks

[Sonebiyinepu (they/them) *bamf*]

[Sonebiyinepu (they/them) *bamf*]

as ya'll can tell, I love Toothless

[Sonebiyinepu (they/them) *bamf*]

I just cut....... 2 months clean....out the window......

[Lee]

What do you mean Yoite?

[Sonebiyinepu (they/them) *bamf*]

I cut my leg up, self-harm


Fuck im a fuck up damnit shit fuck

[Lee]

no it's not your fault.Your thoughts are having a bad time. Chemical brain problem. I should know. I have done it,knives, razors etc. It;s a coping method.Then the guilt kicks in. A doctor can help, I still have bad thoughts and urges. As a Christian I rely on God to lean on. Breathe 10 deeo breathes before you do it. And think of things that you are greatful for and make you happy You are NOT alone!!!

[Sonebiyinepu (they/them) *bamf*]

Umm im not big on god stuff and all, being an athiest.....

But thanks, anxiety attacks stopped....