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[Erin]

I have all this energy and I don't know what to do with it

[Erin]

I don't want to just sit here. I want to walk

[Erin]

I also kinda just feel like screaming

[Erin]

For no reason

[Erin]

Why does everyone have to comment on how sad I look when I'm not crying?

[Erin]

Why does it only matter then?

[Erin]

Or is it that I'm just in places where I should be happy and because I'm not smiling or laughing it automatically means I'm not happy?

[Erin]

Why do I have to fit other people's expectations of happy when I'm already happy and I can't be their happy because their happy isn't my happy

[Erin]

Why do I feel like such a bad person?

[Erin]

I feel like I ruined everyone's night

[Erin]

I'm not even that important so I know that's a lie

[Erin]

I actually kinda look okay today XD

[Erin]

My nose looks terrible though because it has a sore on it and it's red and sick and ugh

[kavi ~he-him~]

Erin wrote: "Shadow of Alex ~They/them~ (The Phoenix Reincarnated) (Shadow of Whales) (Bvbarmy) (Aelonian) (aa family) (Royal council) wrote: "ERIN THERE IS A HARRY POTTER GAME"

WHICH ONE? XD ARE YOU TALKING A..."

YESSSS IT'S SO FUN

[kavi ~he-him~]

I am 18 and just now got my letter

[Erin]

Shadow of Alex ~They/them~ (The Phoenix Reincarnated) (Shadow of Whales) (Bvbarmy) (Aelonian) (aa family) (Royal council) wrote: "Erin wrote: "Shadow of Alex ~They/them~ (The Phoenix Reincarnated) (Shadow of Whales) (Bvbarmy) (Aelonian) (aa family) (Royal council) wrote: "ERIN THERE IS A HARRY POTTER GAME"

WHICH ONE? XD ARE ..."

AHHHH I KNOW! IM LIKE 137% THAT I'VE BECOME SLIGHTLY ADDICTED TO PLAYING

[Erin]

Shadow of Alex ~They/them~ (The Phoenix Reincarnated) (Shadow of Whales) (Bvbarmy) (Aelonian) (aa family) (Royal council) wrote: "I am 18 and just now got my letter"

You're just a late arrival :D I got my letter when I was eleven (my sister made me and and gave it to me for my 11th birthday)

[Erin]

I fell asleep again :(

[Erin]

My stomach hurts so bad right now and so does my head.

[Erin]

I feel like I ate so much today

[Erin]

I've had more in a day before though and I didn't feel like this

[Erin]

I think I have a fever but then again maybe it's just hot

[Erin]

No wonder I'm tired, it's one am XD

[Erin]

So apparently I'm only responding to one roleplay a day

[Erin]

And oh that makes today my birthday.

[Erin]

Wow I actually made it alive

[Erin]

Kinda disappointing

[Erin]

I could die today though

[Erin]

Make my birthday my death date

[Erin]

Hey, it'd be easy for them to remember

[Erin]

Unless they can't remember my birthday

[Erin]

There's always that

[Erin]

I'm going to be in a car. I may actually die.

[Erin]

Let's not thank like this, Erin.

[Erin]

Oh okay, Erin.

[Erin]

Hey! Thank you! :) Seriously, thank you, because I'm like 47% sure you just saved my thought process from being too dark/negative tonight. I probably won't, at least not today. Dying on my birthday doesn't really seem like my thing.

[Erin]

1096 days until I can prove myself wrong, whoo!

[Erin]

I just calculated that like a stupid person

[Erin]

I used an online calculator type thing though. I can't do that myself XD

[Hallie]

:) I accidentally deleted my comment while trying to edit it. Anyway, hope you have a great day!

[Erin]

Thank you!!! I hope you have a great day, too!!! :D

[Erin]

Ugh I should sleep since my mom wants to wake me up at nine am. That's seven hours of sleep. More than usual but still.

[Erin]

I'll try to get on at some point tomorrow. Night!

[Erin]

Hiiiiiiii :)

[Erin]

I'm sooo happy

[Erin]

My sister called me :D

[kavi ~he-him~]

Erin wrote: "Shadow of Alex ~They/them~ (The Phoenix Reincarnated) (Shadow of Whales) (Bvbarmy) (Aelonian) (aa family) (Royal council) wrote: "Erin wrote: "Shadow of Alex ~They/them~ (The Phoenix Reincarnated) ..."

SAME

[kavi ~he-him~]

Erin wrote: "Shadow of Alex ~They/them~ (The Phoenix Reincarnated) (Shadow of Whales) (Bvbarmy) (Aelonian) (aa family) (Royal council) wrote: "I am 18 and just now got my letter"

You're just a late arrival :D ..."

I never got my letter when I was 11 :(

[kavi ~he-him~]

Erin wrote: "And oh that makes today my birthday."

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ERIN OMG!!!! I LOVE YOU

[Erin]

Shadow of Alex ~They/them~ (The Phoenix Reincarnated) (Shadow of Whales) (Bvbarmy) (Aelonian) (aa family) (Royal council) wrote: "Erin wrote: "Shadow of Alex ~They/them~ (The Phoenix Reincarnated) (Shadow of Whales) (Bvbarmy) (Aelonian) (aa family) (Royal council) wrote: "Erin wrote: "Shadow of Alex ~They/them~ (The Phoenix R..."

YAY XD