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trying to feel like me again
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Erin
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May 05, 2018 12:12PM
It's the one I based off my novel. I might've posted it before but I don't remember
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Lillian wrote: "Erin wrote: "Lillian wrote: "Erin wrote: "Lillian wrote: "Erin wrote: "Maybe they just have more talent than me"No they don't. You write amazing songs. If you didn't I wouldn't have put that one ..."
:D
I think I have to go help them with groceries and then cleaning ugh :/
Valentine Ransom "Jeff the Killer" ~Phantom of the Library~ ~Mr Flirt~ ~ZomV~ ~baby Val~ ~FREAK~ wrote: "*coming out of the dark*Your song… I LOVED it!!!!!
*slips out, back to lurking*"
Thanks :D
Since you shared that beautiful song, can I share the poem I picked to share in front of the class in a few weeks? (Mr. Knox told us to pick one we like and explain why)Lol XD I haven't talked to you in a while, your autocorrect is reminding me that we should talk more!
Of course! I'd love to read it! :DHaha yeah! Yeah, I'm sorry for like not talking to you because apparently I go through periods of time where I decide I hate humanity and only give terrible responses XD
I want to cry lol they're fucking obnoxious as hell
My mom and Bill are on the phone and my mom's fallen asleep and he keeps talking and singing do do do and la la la and ughhh
I went upstairs lol easy fix of my problem
Not like a real bird but like the abstract idea of a bird.
I don't want to just go and fly out of the nest
I can already see myself jumping before the home has come and it'll be so reckless
Do you ever think about how the person you feel like you're in love with probably isn't in love with you?
Like not just fear it but like know it, like you see that it's improbable and impractical and makes no sense at all
I'm too young to be in love. It's too early to call this love. I'm so stupid.
It's like you can't control how you feel but you can at the same time
I don't want to be in love. I don't want to care about a person so much that I learn to rely in them and only them. That I turn them into my everything. I don't want that. I've never wanted that.
I don't want to feel love and it's good days and it's bad days and the days where it feels like nothing or like everything.
And yet I do this and I make these decisions.
Like I said before, reckless doesn't look good on me.
My heart is going to get broke and when it does I will fall into a million of pieces and everything will hurt
And I write about heartbreak as someone with no experience and I don't want experience
I don't want to feel everything over nothing
But I would. I always would. Have that longing to feel everything over nothing even when I say I don't and that it's the other way around because it never is
Despite what I wish and want so which is the lie the wanting or the existing and could it be both
And I know I'm not making much sense because my thoughts are a mess. Worse than a mess.
And I'm sorry but I can't really explain it like it is
There's just some things you feel that might seem obvious to other people but it's not really a feeling that others feel. It's more of a thought and more of a simple wave of conversation
I want to die but I feel love and I fall for people recklessly and hopefully and pretend like there's something there
Am I in love with the person or the idea?
it's personal
Books mentioned in this topic
30 Things I Love About Myself (other topics)Challenger Deep (other topics)
Throes (other topics)
P.S. I Still Love You (other topics)
Delirium (other topics)
