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Erin
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May 02, 2018 01:34PM
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Ooh because I've been so sad and down and negative since I got on, wanna here a kinda funny story? Well I find it funny, nobody else will. (view spoiler)
Alright I'm back :) I got distracted with eating chips.
They're like ruffles but their flaming hot
But omg I just started choking for like three seconds
Lillian wrote: "Erin wrote: "They're like ruffles but their flaming hot"ooooh, they sound amazing. :)"
They are!!!
This is my first time eating them and I think I'm in love
Lillian wrote: "Erin wrote: "But omg I just started choking for like three seconds"That's not good."
I thought it was really good.
Lillian wrote: "Erin wrote: "Lillian wrote: "Erin wrote: "But omg I just started choking for like three seconds"That's not good."
I thought it was really good."
*raises eyebrow* Choking is not ever good."
Oh okay. Good to know. I'll keep that in mind for future reference.
Back again this time with chocolate milk also still chips though they're almost gone :(
What had I been going to do in the first place?
Lillian wrote: "Erin wrote: "gollum"What?"
Nothing XD
Oof sorry for my disappearing. My internet connection was failing and I got annoyed with trying to reload the page and I kept listening to my mom
I woke up randomly and now I can't sleep
So imma tell that story I kept trying to tell earlier although it feels less funny now and fills me with anxiety. So it was in my English class and right now we're doing this speech unit and my teacher has us doing it with stimulations and we're all put into families and trying to get cargo. Well we were finishing up the third stimulation yesterday and it was when she would give us a word that the rest of the class didn't know and we'd have to talk in front of the class for what I think was a full minute about whatever but we'd have to at one point use that word and then the rest of the class would have to guess what word it was.
So everyone else had been telling stories about their actual lives: parents, siblings, family life in general, friends, a lot about Hobby Lobby at one point, and just other realistic stuff
Well my cool ass received my word and walked up to the front of the class in my own original style, you know that awkward and shaking one and no smile or look for reassurance at all, and I was like hell no with being realistic, hell no with telling any information about myself... I mean these people could use that kind of shit against me
Well maybe not really because I already forgot more than half of theirs and they've probably forgotten mine too
Wanna know how I began? How it all began?
So I was like "do you guys remember the story about the girl named Alice who fell down into some hole who was trying to chase or find a rabbit that she saw who'd kept checking the time?"
Let's talk about someone else, not me. That's what my mind advised.
And then I was like, "and do you guys remember that other story about that rabbit who was in a race with a tortoise but they stopped and like the tortoise kept going because the rabbit had thought that the tortoise would never beat them because they were much slower than them? And I think that maybe that's why that's why the rabbit kept checking the time because maybe now time is something all rabbits worry about and I think it's hilarious because it's like stories connect. And I know that they're two different stories but it reminds me of this different story my sister told me about this ruler who uh he built stuff like palaces which reminded me of the four founders of Hogwarts because they were like a team and they-" then my time was up
Of course there was probably a lot more awkward uhs and ums when I was actually speaking
And I might've forgotten some of the details
So yeah I think my class hates me because I'm the only one who didn't talk about myself and none of them thought about that
And omg I made it seemed like I had thought about comparing the two rabbits before and like I did it all the time but I think that was the first time I ever did
Or at least the first time I voiced it out loud
I have testing in the morning so probably
Wow I can't even make simple decisions for myself anymore
Welp whatever the case I'm going offline so I can't use this as an excuse
Because people are going to ask me what's wrong because they always do and I never tell them "nothing" because they were kind enough to care to ask
it's personal
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