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trying to feel like me again
Lillian wrote: "Erin wrote: "Lillian wrote: "Erin wrote: "Hmm I guess I'll give y'all a life update (prepare to be board to death)"*sits down in the floor and listens attentively*"
Good job your sitting. Dying ..."
Well that's good! :D
I was supposed to have a doctor's appointment this month but it got canceled because my mom forgot to schedule the transportation
Now I can't go to the doctor until schools out because of all the testing days and because I've already missed too many days of school
We haven't moved yet but we're still planning to and I'm kind of scared that my mom's forgotten that I want to stay in the county that we live in because that's the only way I'll be able to go to the school that I want to go to
I have a C+ in science. Yeah, I'm annoyed about it too.
I have a zero on a test because I haven't had the chance to take it yet because my teacher is always gone on the days that I have time to take it
My state tests scores are terrible or at least I feel like I did terrible on them. I won't get to know until the beginning of next school year though or at least I think that's when
Almost all of last week the eighth graders had to be quiet in the entire cafeteria
I know, it even looks stupid in writing
I'll tell you why two kids threw strawberries at each other
Two kids threw strawberries at each other and they were like all of you must suffer in silence
Okay so I'm slightly being dramatic about it but still
Lillian wrote: "Erin wrote: "I'll tell you why two kids threw strawberries at each other"lol Why though? What a perfectly good waste of strawberries. XD"
I don't even know. I don't even know who the two kids are lol they sat on the other side of the cafeteria. And I'm still kinda confused because I don't remember there being strawberries in the lunch line. And I'm still jealous that they had any.
Now I'm angered, well more so. They brought strawberries from home just to throw them. The only strawberries at school are the frozen ones and while those are good I love the ones that aren't frozen even more.
Sorry, I just got reminded that I haven't ate strawberries in a while and it made me upset
Lillian wrote: "Erin wrote: "Lillian wrote: "Erin wrote: "I'll tell you why two kids threw strawberries at each other"lol Why though? What a perfectly good waste of strawberries. XD"
I don't even know. I don't ..."
Yeah! See what I mean? The entire world is jealous of their strawberries and they're just being fools! They might've been able to get a good price of them, like I don't know, a silent cafeteria. Sorry I'm just creating circles XD
They sold it to the cafeteria I'm laughing lol
I didn't think this hard about the strawberries before
But anyways the whole thing is mostly about the adults wanting respect and them trying to teach us a lesson about how when you react to someone's wrongdoings it makes you just as bad
But they're lesson isn't getting across because nobody can stop thinking about how stupid throwing strawberries is
And so instead the eighth graders keep up their disrespect
And they laugh and laugh and laugh and whisper and mumble and yell things out and let their phones go off and talk as if it's just a typical day
They're demanding respect but they're not showing that they deserve it
And it's like their adults you should respect them automatically because they're doing a lot for you and they clean up after you
But at the same time you're not going to get the respect from middle schoolers because they're middle schoolers and their stupid and terrible people
Honestly though do all middle schools act this way?
Because these people are so rude and it makes me even more scared for future generations.
Also my ankle still isn't in the best shape. I haven't really taken care of it tbh
It hurts to walk on and my knee hurts too
I don't think it's swollen anymore but then again I can't tell
Lillian wrote: "Erin wrote: "Because these people are so rude and it makes me even more scared for future generations."I know right?!?"
Yesss, exactly! Like at first these kids were being sent to the office but because there's gotten to be so many they're just being sent to the hallway. And the only punishment I know that they're getting is that they're being kicked off the DC trip if they're still on it. I don't know. They're not even getting like punished.
Lillian wrote: "Erin wrote: "Also my ankle still isn't in the best shape. I haven't really taken care of it tbh"Erin..."
Yes?
Sorry that wasn't the proper response, was it?
I don't even know if it's my fault anymore.
Like is it because I'm not doing enough to help it or is it because of the fact that woman are more prone to knee pain like that doctor told my sister?
But that doesn't really explain why it hurts to stand on my ankles
Sometimes when I stand everything goes black and it's like that's happened to me for forever but it's like gotten worse because it's not just once every day or week it's like every time I go to stand
I keep feeling nauseous and dizzy to although that could just be the side affects of my anxiety but I don't know
Oh I didn't even finish explaining the cafeteria stuff like I wanted to. So here goes: I kept having anxiety every day last week that we had to be silent. On the first day I rushed to finish my lunch and tried to focus on writing but I couldn't. On the second day I kept trying to get myself not to breathe because I felt like I couldn't breathe and didn't eat much of my lunch. And on Thursday and Friday I didn't even get in the lunch line.
I don't know if we're going to have to be silent on Monday yet
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Yee :/ It's starting to feel like I'm never not sick.