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Erin
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Apr 12, 2018 06:13PM
Losing it
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I can't keep limping and relying on one foot now. Damn.
I might not be on for the next couple of days
And when testing starts for me I won't be getting on at all
I keep thinking about all the ways I'll fail
To think so much until you have nothing left
Thinking sounds like a lot but when it's all only in your head it isn't that strong or powerful or real
Lillian wrote: "Erin wrote: "I might not be on for the next couple of days"As long as you come back okay. :) (because that means you aren't dead.)"
Yeah true true :D (alive is always better than dead)
Welp Imma go to bed since it's late and I haven't been sleeping right at all lately :D
Erin wrote: "I have to take the pacer test sometime soon and ughhh"OMG I'm so glad to be more than 3/4 done with gym forever. Pacer is the worst!! Just drop out after 25-30 and don't try to hurt yourself by overachieving (me)
I mean for the cross country people 45 laps is nothing but that's a lot for me
*hugs* hang in there, I won't say you're wonderful because that just puts pressure on me to be that way, so let's say you're a small human being and it's admirable that you go beyond most of society
Alia wrote: "Erin wrote: "I have to take the pacer test sometime soon and ughhh"OMG I'm so glad to be more than 3/4 done with gym forever. Pacer is the worst!! Just drop out after 25-30 and don't try to hurt ..."
Yeah ahh you're lucky! At this point, I'm glad I didn't choose a full year of gym for next year because I'm sure I would've died XD And okay but same, I literally love overachieving. As for the number that I do, it depends on how many I have to do compared to when I took it at the beginning of the year (or at least I think that's how that works) because I have to get over that by some amount or something.
Alia wrote: "I mean for the cross country people 45 laps is nothing but that's a lot for me"Yeah same! I don't think I've ever gotten to forty five though lol. I think my highest was 24 or something like that.
Alia wrote: "*hugs* hang in there, I won't say you're wonderful because that just puts pressure on me to be that way, so let's say you're a small human being and it's admirable that you go beyond most of society"*hugs back* And awe thank you! :D
Lillian wrote: "Erin wrote: "Lillian wrote: "Erin wrote: "I might not be on for the next couple of days"As long as you come back okay. :) (because that means you aren't dead.)"
Yeah true true :D (alive is alway..."
:D
And my mom wants us to help her with the house today and I'm just like I don't want to be around anyone
Erin wrote: "Lillian wrote: "Erin wrote: "edge wrote: "69 views! im jealous"Yee thanks :D What's your journal called (I'm not sure if I looked at it yet xD)?"
Her journal is Swear Department."
Thank you!!! :D"
Why erin you visited my journal and you didnt even say you were there lol
edge wrote: "Erin wrote: "Lillian wrote: "Erin wrote: "edge wrote: "69 views! im jealous"Yee thanks :D What's your journal called (I'm not sure if I looked at it yet xD)?"
Her journal is Swear Department."
..."
How'd you know it was me???? xD sorry I'm an awkward person lol
Listening to an audiobook and being on Goodreads feels right for some weird reason XD
Maybe it's a good thing I didn't go to school
I need all the help I can get on the AIR test
Maybe I should go back to sleep or write?
It was my mom's idea to go take naps instead of get to work, not mine
it's personal
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