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[Erin]

I think I finally responded to all of them though

[Erin]

I think

[Erin]

Idk

[Erin]

I feel like I'm missing one

[Erin]

I'm freaking g out over nothing probably

[Erin]

Stupid anxiety

[Erin]

People respond way faster than me and it makes me feel bad

[Erin]

I should feel bad

[Erin]

I'm a mess

[Erin]

Ahhhhhhhhh

[Erin]

Oh shit. I haven't done any Aleks today

[Erin]

I'll respond to the roleplay one last time

[Erin]

and then I'll leave

[Erin]

So see y'all later

[Erin]

Okay but I'm dying

[Erin]

Of laughter, of course xD

[Erin]

I'm adding corruption to my dictionary list xD

[kavi ~he-him~]

BESTIE

[Erin]

Alex ~He/him~ (The Phoenix Reincarnated) (Bvbarmy) (Aelonian) (aa family) (Royal council) wrote: "BESTIE"

FRIENDO XD

[Erin]

Ahhhhhhhhh why can't I write

[Erin]

I'm freaking terrible I swear

[Erin]

I was so excited and now I don't know what to write or how to start

[Erin]

The beginning is usually the easy part

[Erin]

Ughhh

[Erin]

I want to cry

[Erin]

This isn't fair

[Erin]

It's like all my excitement is now drained

[Erin]

I'm so tired of being sad

[Erin]

I thought Camp NaNoWriMo would help me

[Erin]

Like motivate me or something

[Erin]

I always feel good about the first day

[Erin]

What's wrong with me this year?

[Erin]

I've already wasted an hour of the first day :/

[Erin]

I'm a terrible writer

[Erin]

I shouldn't call myself a writer though since I write that one poem xD

[Erin]

I'm fantastic

[Erin]

Honestly

[Erin]

I'm terrible but I should feel fantastic

[Erin]

If only I was always full of myself lol

[Erin]

That'd be great

[Erin]

I am sick
and I don't want to get out of bed
or even more a single muscle
or breathe a single breath
ever again.

I am sick
and my head won't stop pounding
with thoughts that contradict
and over think and aren't right
and thoughts that shouldn't exist in my head.

I am sick
and broken and a mess
and completely not okay
but completely fine because
I will be found.

I am sick
and I'm alive and breathing
and not sleeping and tired
and lost and confused but
I can do this.

I am sick
and afraid that it'll be contagious
like the negativity I spread before
and I don't know how to stop
and I'm sorry but I'm not going to heal.

[Erin]

Ewww I hate that

[Erin]

Is that all I can do?

[Erin]

I want more

[Erin]

I want better

[Erin]

I just want to write something that isn't terrible in my eyes

[Erin]

How can you be good enough for a perfectionist though?

[Erin]

Imma just go cry sleep

[Erin]

See y'all later

[Erin]

Okay so I'm going to die