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[Erin]

Just do over 100 topics on the last day. Surprise everyone XD

[Erin]

Why am I so unrealistic? I'm a mess

[Erin]

Okay I should go actually do stuff now.

[Erin]

Probably.

[Erin]

Probably not.

[Alia ~you are not your anxiety~]

Erin wrote: "Alia wrote: "You're a kind of positive I've never seen before, and I like it XD

I have a friend I'm trying not to be annoyed by right now- didn't realize they'd be the type to ignore real problems..."

No you really are! It's true that you have energy, but when you're positive, it's a very realistic positive XD Balance is damn hard sometimes though.

That's a good suggestion, but honestly the problems are petty, so it's not a talk about something like "hey, why don't you care about the Parkland shooting" because they really care and take action when it's needed. I guess they just seem to be in constant denial of the negative change in atmosphere at school these days. And they make excuses for a teacher who seriously needs to change. That stuff. At least they are pulling out of an organization that has some issues next year. It's my own petty emotions more than anything else but I do not like when smart people try to deny things they know to be true, even in a private place. Out loud is one thing; I fake it there too. But yeah. It's not going to help our world to feed the establishment and the existing, flawed structures now in place.

Excuse this, school's fine, I think veey broadly and passionately sometimes XD

[Alia ~you are not your anxiety~]

Hallie wrote: "*pops in* 31 *pops out*"

You stalker! Jk come back xD

[Erin]

Thanks, I guess :D Huh, maybe I don't notice my positivity because all I seem to notice are my bad aspects. But yay I can be realistically positive!! xD and yeah, that's true, but it feels closer to perfection it's at least me attempting to try something.

Oh, I see. Your emotions still seem to make sense though, even if you find them petty. For them to deny something that they know to be true in a discussion that's private seems kinda unfair to both you and themselves, unless it's sincerely how they feel or they're making themselves naive to the truth but you don't seem to think so so idk. I mean I didn't know before but still idk. Ahh.

You're fine!

[Erin]

My migraine is making it so hard to focus right now ughhhhh

[Erin]

Alia wrote: "Hallie wrote: "*pops in* 31 *pops out*"

You stalker! Jk come back xD"

Okay but that's literally what I wanted to say, but I thought I'd sound rude lol

[Erin]

Maybe I should wait until after April to start roleplaying again because of Camp NaNo

[Erin]

Hmm idk

[Erin]

What should I do?

[Erin]

I feel bad but I want be able to continue responding to roleplays once I start again

[Erin]

I feel bad for always leaving

[Erin]

But at the same time idk

[Erin]

I feel like I'll always leave

[Erin]

I feel like my friend doesn't want to talk anymore, or at least right now and I should stop but I've never been good at not replying to conversations

[Erin]

Ugh

[Erin]

I'm so tired

[Alia ~you are not your anxiety~]

Lillian wrote: "Erin wrote: "I'm so tired"

Same."

Ditto.

[Erin]

Alia wrote: "Lillian wrote: "Erin wrote: "I'm so tired"

Same."

Ditto."

Lillian wrote: "Erin wrote: "I'm so tired"

Same."

Sleeppppppp. Whether or not it's physical or emotional or mental exhaustion, just let's all sleep.

[Erin]

Whoa but can you imagine if everyone in the world all just went to sleep

[Erin]

That's be weird

[Erin]

See? Even Jeff advises it XD

[Erin]

I don't blame him. I want to kill me too xD

Hey Jeff, mind doing the work for me?

[Erin]

I'm disappointed, too.

But for Jeff it's murder, not dying! And it's not like I'm really dying, just taking on the form of the dead and not living.

[Erin]

But pleeeaaaaasseee????

Dammit. There goes my plans against Trump.

[Erin]

Just kidding, FBI. I'm too depressed and anxious for a future to kill anyone.

[Erin]

Ha. Ha. Ha.

[Erin]

Really, though.

[Erin]

Fine. I'll just go out the old fashioned way.

Yay!!!! Thanks, Jeff xD

[Erin]

Very fancy xD

I'm trying. *hugs back*

[Erin]

My friend told me I should get caught up on sleep and I was just like yeah I'll probably fill up at least a day's worth of sleep and she told me to get more xD

[Erin]

And now I'm like I don't wanna sleeppppppp

[Erin]

Lillian wrote: "Erin wrote: "And now I'm like I don't wanna sleeppppppp"

Same."

But you gotta sleep, you sick bird xD

[Erin]

I keep bringing up birds today.

[Erin]

I'm drinking a cup of coffee too so wtf

[Erin]

And I know that I'm probably not going to sleep tomorrow night because of Camp NaNoWriMo lol

[Erin]

I'm a mess

[Erin]

Lillian wrote: "Erin wrote: "Lillian wrote: "Erin wrote: "And now I'm like I don't wanna sleeppppppp"

Same."

But you gotta sleep, you sick bird xD"
I am an exhausted pigeon. XD"

Then don't fly XD

[Erin]

Lillian wrote: "Erin wrote: "I'm drinking a cup of coffee too so wtf"

Also same. Actually I drank 3...."

Okay but freaking same. Well technically I'm on my third cup right now xD

[Erin]

Lillian wrote: "Erin wrote: "Lillian wrote: "Erin wrote: "Lillian wrote: "Erin wrote: "And now I'm like I don't wanna sleeppppppp"

Same."

But you gotta sleep, you sick bird xD"
I am an exhausted pigeon. XD"

Th..."

:D

[Erin]

Lillian wrote: "Erin wrote: "Lillian wrote: "Erin wrote: "I'm drinking a cup of coffee too so wtf"

Also same. Actually I drank 3...."

Okay but freaking same. Well technically I'm on my third cup right now xD"

O..."

Yeap, I just finished and now I'm debating if I should make more xD

[Erin]

I honestly shouldn't but I wanna

[Hallie]

Alia wrote: "Hallie wrote: "*pops in* 31 *pops out*"

You stalker! Jk come back xD"

Erin wrote: "Alia wrote: "Hallie wrote: "*pops in* 31 *pops out*"

You stalker! Jk come back xD"

Okay but that's literally what I wanted to say, but I thought I'd sound rude lol"

Haha I consider myself a stalker anyway. Sorry if I'm making you uncomfortable, though, Erin!

[Erin]

Lillian wrote: "Oh! Erin I have to tell you what happened today! So I went to the Spring open house at the university that I want to go to, and it was so cool!

I'm interested in South/East Asian studies. and eve..."

Ahhhh that's awesome!!!! I'm happy for you!!! And awe, she sounds like an awesome person!!!! :D

[Erin]

Lillian wrote: "Erin wrote: "I honestly shouldn't but I wanna"

Literally me all the time. XD"

Haha same we xD

[Erin]

Hallie wrote: "Alia wrote: "Hallie wrote: "*pops in* 31 *pops out*"

You stalker! Jk come back xD"

Erin wrote: "Alia wrote: "Hallie wrote: "*pops in* 31 *pops out*"

You stalker! Jk come back xD"

Okay but that'..."

No, you're fine!! I'm just typically an awkward/ uncomfortable person xD

[Erin]

Lillian wrote: "Erin wrote: "Lillian wrote: "Oh! Erin I have to tell you what happened today! So I went to the Spring open house at the university that I want to go to, and it was so cool!

I'm interested in Sout..."

You're completely fine! I love seeing you geek out over something :D And your reminding me of the school I want to get into for highschool that'll help me with my future goals but my trip to see it isn't until later in the school year xD And ahhhh that's so cool that she gave you the book omg that like super excites me!! And awe the fact that she noticed your interest and gave it to you instead of another student ahhhh that's really awesome! And the fact that it was written by one of her old students is super cool!! Ahhhh, you just got me so excited lol!