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[Erin]

But I'm obsessed with a so called "everything" that I seek

[Erin]

wtf is this

[Erin]

am I

[Erin]

any of it

[Erin]

Idk.

[Erin]

Lillian wrote: "Erin wrote: "I feel like throwing up"

:("

:/

[Erin]

Lillian wrote: "Erin wrote: "To see if there's anything, as my mom says "psychologically wrong with me""

Nothing's wrong with you Erin. *hugs*"

Please don't lie. It's to early for that. *hugs back*

[Erin]

I don't want to get up.

[Erin]

I doubt want to move from this bed

[Erin]

This bed that's not actually a bed but a yellow foam thing on the floor

[Erin]

Lillian wrote: "Erin wrote: "Lillian wrote: "Erin wrote: "To see if there's anything, as my mom says "psychologically wrong with me""

Nothing's wrong with you Erin. *hugs*"

Please don't lie. It's to early for th..."

But you are because there are so many things wrong with me. *hugs back tightly*

[Erin]

It's the list.

[Erin]

They're becoming my thing and I don't want them to be

[Erin]

They've always been my thing, though

[Erin]

I used to not write them out but I'd form them at night when I wouldn't sleep

[Erin]

Couldn't sleep

[Erin]

Lillian wrote: "Erin wrote: "Lillian wrote: "Erin wrote: "Lillian wrote: "Erin wrote: "To see if there's anything, as my mom says "psychologically wrong with me""

Nothing's wrong with you Erin. *hugs*"

Please do..."

Yeah, of course you don't care. You're not me. You're a friend. You're going to deny me of all of my wrongs as if they aren't there, but they are. You make sense just in the inlogical way. There are things wrong with everybody, and I'm tired if denying mine and allowing others to deny them, too.

[Erin]

Flaws make the best characters, I've always agreed with that, so why do I still hate them and me for having them?

[Erin]

I've sat up and I feel dizzy

[Erin]

Lillian wrote: "Erin wrote: "Lillian wrote: "Erin wrote: "Lillian wrote: "Erin wrote: "Lillian wrote: "Erin wrote: "To see if there's anything, as my mom says "psychologically wrong with me""

Nothing's wrong with..."

*hugs back*

[Erin]

Dammit, I'm sorry.

[Erin]

I'm going to leave. I'll come back when I feel better.

[Erin]

Probably in an hour when I'm bored XD

[Erin]

Lillian wrote: "Erin wrote: "Dammit, I'm sorry."

what are you sorry for?"

To you: for trying to push you away. again.

To anyone else who ever reads those two words: for being so negative

To myself: for hating who I am

[kavi ~he-him~]

*hugs Erin* :(

[Erin]

Lillian wrote: "Erin wrote: "Lillian wrote: "Erin wrote: "Dammit, I'm sorry."

what are you sorry for?"

To you: for trying to push you away. again.

To anyone else who ever reads those two words: for being so ne..."

Never is a long time. A scary time. Why? Also what's weird is i thought I had found gum in my hair earlier (thankfully, it was not)

[Erin]

Alex ~He/him~ (The Phoenix Reincarnated) (Bvbarmy) (Aelonian) (aa family) (Royal council) wrote: "*hugs Erin* :("

*hugs back* :/

[Erin]

I lied.

[Erin]

It was not an hour.

[Erin]

Also I could have responded to a roleplay in the time I made that announcement ughhh

[Erin]

Someone should point that out to me so I can cry XD

[Erin]

I can't sleep

[Erin]

I have less than an hour before I have to wake up for school now

[Erin]

I should've slept

[Erin]

Forced myself to

[Erin]

I took my sleep medicine. It should know better by now. Don't just tap me, tackle me

[Erin]

Ughhh I already don't want to do this

[Erin]

I guess the snow day yesterday was actually helpful :)

[Erin]

There isn't really a point to sleep now

[Erin]

Ugh.

[Erin]

Great another day where I hate myself :)

[Erin]

I want to delete that post I made in that other group and just disappear

[Erin]

I guess I could technically still disappear

[Erin]

Hmm, I'll have to give it more thought

[Erin]

For now though imma go pretend to be asleep

[Erin]

Night XD

[Erin]

Good morning! :D

[Erin]

I fucking fell asleep dammit and now we're late

[Erin]

I have to go mess up everything

[Erin]

I shouldn't of slept