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trying to feel like me again
And just so you know I don't mean that towards anybody- there is something behind that stereotype when it is portrayed, it's just that YA authors make it cookie cutter and don't go into it in order to make it simplistic. Because simple makes money. This is not simple.
Alia [permanent semi-hiatus] wrote: "Erin wrote: "Alia [permanent semi-hiatus] wrote: "Erin sorry to burst in like this but OH MY GOODNESS, you should read the book Challenger Deep by Neal Shusterman. It's great for anyone to read bu..."
No problem! Well it definetely sounds like a book worth reading, so I'll be sure to check it out as soon as I can. I've just requested it so it should arrive at the library soon for me to pick up.
Ooh yeah I'm completely looking forward to reading this book.
I've actually been looking for a book about mental illness that actually gets into it, so I'm excited to read it.
Probably though because that seems to be how I've been reading this past week XD
Alia [permanent semi-hiatus] wrote: "And just so you know I don't mean that towards anybody- there is something behind that stereotype when it is portrayed, it's just that YA authors make it cookie cutter and don't go into it in order..."Yeah, I think get what you mean. My goal is that after I finish writing my musical I'm going to write a book, maybe a memoir, about how mental illness has affected my life.
I don't know how to explain this and maybe I won't have to but you know how I say I write for myself? That's like the biggest truth I'll probably ever say. With my musical it's to talk about an everyday persons life with anxiety. I'm writing that musical now to show myself what it means to be a child with anxiety. I don't want to grow up and forget what it feels like to be a child. I want to grow up and still understand and be able to help future generations, you know?
But when I do start writing this memoir it's going to be hard. I'll have to dig at parts if myself I don't like to think about. I have to write this book to save my self. I have many goals in store for myself for me to be able to love myself and that book is seriously going to be the hardest one.
And I know it's kinda like a kid shouldn't write a memoir until they're older because then they'll have a full grip of their life but I need to write it as a kid because if I don't, if I don't then I won't see the point if it. The point I want to make out of it is to fly and I won't know that if I write the book way too late.
sometimes I think my anxiety will kill me, but no, it just knocks my breath away.
I didn't do anything I set out to do today
I don't know why but I keep having this sudden urge to cry and I don't like that.
Lillian wrote: "Erin wrote: "I don't know why but I keep having this sudden urge to cry and I don't like that."Hello Erin. (same) *hugs*"
Hey!!! I feel like I haven't talked to you in forever! Like a year or something! (oh no, remember if you need to talk I'm here) *hugs back*
Lillian wrote: "Erin wrote: "Lillian wrote: "Erin wrote: "I don't know why but I keep having this sudden urge to cry and I don't like that."Hello Erin. (same) *hugs*"
Hey!!! I feel like I haven't talked to you ..."
For real! How have you been? What's up? (that's good, I'm okay too)
That's good! Ah, that sucks but I hope it gets at least somewhat less stressful for you. And I'm glad for that :)
Ahhh more stressed out than I thought I could be on a vacation but still pretty okay. Also I keep feeling way too nostalgic these days XD
Omg that sounds beautiful XD (Idk but very interesting. very interesting indeed.) Thanks, me too :D
I haven't actually read anything by him yet, at least I don't think so, but I keep meaning too because his writing seems so beautiful. (Probably not XD)
I feel like I've actually read that one online awhile back or at least part of it but I'll go look it up on YouTube and watch it since it's been awhile
Ahh but it's so good. I did hear it before but damn it's still sooo good.
I wanna recite all kinds of poetry one day XD
Omg can you just imagine if I could recite Annabel Lee? I'd cry.
Yeah it would! Yeah, it'll probably take some time but lately I've been trying to remember/recites lots of things and I feel like poetry would be fun to do.
Erin wrote: "Alia [permanent semi-hiatus] wrote: "Erin wrote: "Alia [permanent semi-hiatus] wrote: "Erin sorry to burst in like this but OH MY GOODNESS, you should read the book Challenger Deep by Neal Shusterm..."It's definitely a book worth reading, and I'm so glad you're getting it!
That's good!
Yeah. Just don't expect it to show too much of what it's like to have it in the real world, like at school or whatever. Caden is too far removed that we hardly know anything about the world outside of his mind and home. His is a drastic example of mental illness but is portrayed masterfully. And at the end, that will be explained if you turn to the author's notes after you read it.
Okay no complaints there!
I think it's amazing that you're writing a musical :D And a memoir is also a good idea if you think it'll help you. Oh yeah don't get misled by people who say you shouldn't write one as a kid. My life could fill many pages... and it's not like I'm a celebrity.
Good luck with all that!
Have you read All the Bright Places? I haven't, but a lot of people said that it glamorizes mental illness and Challenger Deep doesn't.
Oh ERIN I'm so sorry!I did get your message. It was incredibly touching. Thank you <3
I'm just not replying because a distracted Alia won't do. Hope you understand.
Valentine Ransom (call me Val) ~Phantom of the Library~ wrote: "I like writing poetry! :D"Me too!!
Alia [permanent semi-hiatus] wrote: "Erin wrote: "Alia [permanent semi-hiatus] wrote: "Erin wrote: "Alia [permanent semi-hiatus] wrote: "Erin sorry to burst in like this but OH MY GOODNESS, you should read the book Challenger Deep by ..."Me too! :D
Ooh.... It sounds like such a good book, especially for the topic of mental illness, because personally I believe the world can never have enough good books about mental illness.
Thanks :D Yeah, the more I think about it the more I think I will abd that it'd help me more, but maybe that's because my lives a mess and I keep seeing more and more signs about mental illness in it.
No, but that's another one of those books that people tell me about but I never got the chance to read it because of being busy or forgetting. I had no idea what it was about though. Maybe I'll end up reading both and comparing them like I'll have to do with the next book I read for school XD
Alia [permanent semi-hiatus] wrote: "Oh ERIN I'm so sorry!I did get your message. It was incredibly touching. Thank you <3
I'm just not replying because a distracted Alia won't do. Hope you understand."
You're fine! Don't worry about it! :)
You're welcome <3
Yeah, you're fine. I understand.
Lillian wrote: "Erin wrote: "Valentine Ransom (call me Val) ~Phantom of the Library~ wrote: "I like writing poetry! :D"Me too!!"
and me! Although I haven't written any in a long time."
Then use that as an excuse to write some XD
Last night at like twelve in the morning a pizza was delivered to our house. And you wanna know why?
My little sister was telling me how she'll beat him up if she ever sees him again but that's irrational thinking.
The judge wouldn't give my mom a restraining order and I'm pissed about that like seriously?
But they have a court date sometime soon.
Right now though I'm just working on my musical and ranting XD Seems like a good life.
Wow Erin don't respond to people's messages even when you do have time off, you're a good person. My friends hate me XD
I'm the reason I lose my friends but when I have them I'm picky and just like noooo
Sorry for my perfectionism but not really because sorry is no where near enough lol
It's called On The Edge, which is how I got the name for this journal XD It's about an everyday person's struggle with anxiety and learning to find your voice and yourself but then I've also managed to throw it into a fantasy-ish world.
I should get better at explaining things XD
I just finally figured out the first song because I'd been going out of order.
Eventually I'll post them somewhere so I'll have a backup for them but not yet.
I'm afraid I'll end up losing it. It wouldn't be the first time I lost my writing though :/
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Books mentioned in this topic
30 Things I Love About Myself (other topics)Challenger Deep (other topics)
Throes (other topics)
P.S. I Still Love You (other topics)
Delirium (other topics)
It's great for anyone to read but for you all..."
Thanks! Okay omg thank you so much because I really really want to discuss it with someone! And I have a feeling you'd appreciate the undercurrent of the story as I did. Some of the feelings the main character has are totally foreign to me and others I know. The foreign ones are portrayed spectacularly. And there were quite a few of them so that makes it great.
Awesome! Yeah you should. Just don't prepare to be smiling. You won't cry either. But you'll feel the deadweight inside...
This book is indeed about mental illness but it's not the stereotypical life sucks and no one cares but oh well I'm just gonna curse a lot YA thing. Far from it. That's what I liked. It shows the horrors of it but also recognizes the help people can get and how it can work with time. I won't say any more but yeah... just read it.
Okay no problem! :) Read through it in a day like I did perhaps or not XD