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[Erin]

It's mostly I'm just against myself

[Erin]

I guess that always seems to be the case

[Erin]

I'm a terrible friend. Making everything about me

[Erin]

I want to throw up

[Erin]

I don't want to be my mother.

[Erin]

Lillian wrote: "Erin wrote: "Lillian wrote: "Erin wrote: "Lillian wrote: "Erin wrote: "I feel like I'm giving out false hope"

Erin wrote: "I don't even know if that'll work"

Erin wrote: "Lillian wrote: "Erin wro..."

you've existed beautifully. *hugs back*

[Erin]

Lillian wrote: "Erin wrote: "Lillian wrote: "Erin wrote: "Lillian wrote: "Erin wrote: "Lillian wrote: "Erin wrote: "I feel like I'm giving out false hope"

Erin wrote: "I don't even know if that'll work"

Erin wro..."

*hugs back tighter* you're fine, we'll make it through this together <3

[Erin]

Lillian wrote: "Erin wrote: "Lillian wrote: "Erin wrote: "Lillian wrote: "Erin wrote: "Lillian wrote: "Erin wrote: "Lillian wrote: "Erin wrote: "I feel like I'm giving out false hope"

Erin wrote: "I don't even kn..."

Yay, a step forward or something.

[Erin]

I ACTUALLY SWALLOWED MY SLEEP MEDICINE AGAIN TONIGHT. PROGRESS!

[Erin]

I wish it was every day progress though XD

[Erin]

I really should stop rubbing my eyes. It helps nothing.

[Erin]

I'm off to go sleep, hopefully!

[Erin]

I can't sleep

[Erin]

I took my sleep medicine so why?

[Erin]

Ugh probably because I never turned off my phone

[Erin]

I'm a mess

[Erin]

I'll go try again

[kavi ~he-him~]

Erin wrote: "It's funny how I keep trying to help people but I call myself selfish. The truth is: I just want to be known as a good person."

same here, I try to be there for others and help them and stuff

[kavi ~he-him~]

Erin wrote: "Lillian wrote: "Erin wrote: "Lillian wrote: "Erin wrote: "Lillian wrote: "Erin wrote: "Lillian wrote: "Erin wrote: "I feel like I'm giving out false hope"

Erin wrote: "I don't even know if that'll..."

WE ARE ALL IN THIS TOGETHER

[Erin]

Alex ~He/him~ (The Phoenix Reincarnated) (Bvbarmy) (Aelonian) (aa family) (Royal council) wrote: "Erin wrote: "It's funny how I keep trying to help people but I call myself selfish. The truth is: I just want to be known as a good person."

same here, I try to be there for others and help them a..."

Yeah, but you're actually a good person.

[Erin]

Alex ~He/him~ (The Phoenix Reincarnated) (Bvbarmy) (Aelonian) (aa family) (Royal council) wrote: "Erin wrote: "Lillian wrote: "Erin wrote: "Lillian wrote: "Erin wrote: "Lillian wrote: "Erin wrote: "Lillian wrote: "Erin wrote: "I feel like I'm giving out false hope"

Erin wrote: "I don't even kn..."

TRUE TRUE

[Erin]

I can't do this.

[Erin]

I need to get out.

[Erin]

I need to move move move

[Erin]

Guys it really hurts and I don't know how to explain it

[Erin]

It's like I want to be there and to help but I'll always blame myself

[Erin]

I can't blame myself again

[Erin]

I can't

[Erin]

I know that that's selfish thinking but I can't

[Erin]

I really can't

[Erin]

I need to leave

[Erin]

I was having a pretty okay day

[Erin]

Why am I like this

[Erin]

I should've drowned. I wish I'd drowned.

[Erin]

I don't want to die anymore I swear

[Erin]

But at the same time I really do

[Erin]

I don't want to think that

[Erin]

I need to leave

[Erin]

I can't live in fear

[Erin]

I can't hate myself

[Erin]

I don't want to be here I don't want to be here

[Erin]

And my question is still, am I a trigger?

[Erin]

To myself, yes.

[Erin]

To my friends, I want to say no

[Erin]

I can't say no

[Erin]

If I die, don't feel like you have to forgive me but at the same time don't waste your life feeling anything for me.

[Erin]

Just a note.

[Erin]

I don't wanna work

[Erin]

I want to leave and to run

[Erin]

Get hit by that train that just started coming