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trying to feel like me again
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Erin
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Mar 17, 2018 03:03PM
I'm so tired
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Hi Lillian! I'm okayish, how about you?
Yeah true true :DOh, I'm sorry! If you need to talk, I'm here. And if not, well, I'm still here.
You're fine, but yeah we can go there. (Btw sorry abour my sliw responses, my internet is acting up right now)
Well then, thanks for understanding! :D
Wow im such great help. Very good. I love myself so much. Perfect person. ....what?
She probably doesn't even actually miss me, though.
It hurts to think that. To even believe it. But damn.
This isbt right. I'm sorry. I'm not supposed to be thinking logically and seeming so emotionless and like I'm trying to control yours, but still, I wish there was someone fir me and I wish id been there for them and I want to say everything but all I have is something and that doesn't make sense but it's all that I have
Its fine though because every thought about her every second i spent hating myself for not helping her every anxiety attack every letter written all of it- I'll just forget
I'll forget about how im supposed to care I'll lose my mind to the walls that I put up
I'll delete every memory every moment there was because there will never be another I love you unless for once she says it first
Lillian wrote: "*hugs Erin*"*Hugs back*
Is life just fear that you'll lose everyone you love?
When you make a joke and there's actually a sad story behind it...peace sign!
Note: Eating doesn't help nausea but neither does not eating but you need fooid to survive, so do the math. Answer: (view spoiler)
I feel like I'm lying or maybe just that I'm a lie
Like I portray myself better here than I actually am
Everything isn't my fault so why doesn't it feel like it
I feel like I can't do anything anymore
Awe i love people on Goodreads. They just made my day while I was too busy trying to avoid everyone
Just kidding, I've actually been pretty social today
I've already tired myself out and I still have homework
Plus I need to respond to roleplays today
I don't want to think that but I did and I do and I am
Figures as soon as I get motivated to do stuff and to roleplay again my mom ruins my mood
Yes, Mom, you make my mental health worse.
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30 Things I Love About Myself (other topics)Challenger Deep (other topics)
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