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[Erin]

Just kidding. It's just society I hide from xD

[Erin]

I'm not even funny

[Erin]

*shrugs*

[Erin]

Another failed attempt at swallowing a pill :(

[Erin]

It tastes disgusting when you have to chew it

[Erin]

All I want to do is sleep

[Erin]

Damn.

[Erin]

Well I still gotta try, so night all!

[Erin]

GUYS SHIT SHIT SHIT I FUCKING SWALLOWED IT WHOOOOO

[Erin]

This is the greatest moment. Not really but IM JUST HAPPY THIS IS PROGRESS

[Erin]

Eww I was happy

[Erin]

Just kidding

[Erin]

Happiness is good

[Erin]

I'm still kinda happy, even with the bad day I had :D

[kavi ~he-him~]

I love you

[Erin]

I love you, too!

[Erin]

I want to leave so badly.

[Erin]

I wanted to go to that party.

[Erin]

I don't even want to ask to go now though

[Erin]

My mom knows just how to turn my day from okay to terrible haha

[Erin]

She knows just how to make me go from oh I have good news to nevermind I don't fucking matter

[Erin]

She knows just how to make me go from I actually want to hang out with friends to I don't deserve my friends

[Erin]

I said I would try to go but now I'm too tired to try

[Erin]

I was going to walk

[Erin]

An hour and 21 minutes

[Erin]

Ahhh

[Erin]

I feel so trapped here

[Erin]

*hugs back*

[Erin]

I just wish I could hate her the way she makes me hate myself

[Erin]

But I really don't hate her.

[Erin]

Instead I just hate myself for what I should feel

[Erin]

I should've told her she's a terrible mother

[Erin]

I should've told her she's a terrible person

[Erin]

I should've told her how much she is the reasons why I hate myself

[Erin]

I can see myself actually loving myself one day and then her ripping it apart

[Erin]

I'm not supposed to see things like that as negative as I am

[Erin]

Mary's on the phone and I can hear her talking to my mom and she is so lucky

[Erin]

I miss her but she's lucky she's not here

[Erin]

I want to die so badly right now. I don't want to die anymore. I'm not supposed to want to die. That's not what I want

[Erin]

I just want to breathe

[Erin]

I don't deserve to breathe

[Erin]

I should but I don't

[Erin]

I'm a terrible sister and a terrible daughter and a terrible friend and I just want to go go go and leave everything behind me and just not even care

[Erin]

I'm sorry

[Erin]

I really need to stop feeling everything

[Erin]

Valentine Ransom (call me Val) ~Phantom of the Library~ ~Mr Flirt~ ~Sunflower's marido~ ~Valentine ghost~ wrote: "*joins hug*"

*hugs*

[Erin]

Valentine Ransom (call me Val) ~Phantom of the Library~ ~Mr Flirt~ ~Sunflower's marido~ ~Valentine ghost~ wrote: "I love my family though they make me hate me, so… I feel you."

Aw, I'm sorry :/

[Erin]

Valentine Ransom (call me Val) ~Phantom of the Library~ ~Mr Flirt~ ~Sunflower's marido~ ~Valentine ghost~ wrote: "We love you! *hugs*"

Thanks! Even though sometimes I wish you all didn't xD I love y'all too! *hugs*

[Erin]

Awe for a quick moment I got emotional at the thought of it being okay. Ahh I love okayness :D

[Erin]

Awe but that's literally so true!!!!