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[Erin]

I DONT WANT TO READ BOOKS ANYMORE.

[Erin]

AHGHHGGGGGHHHHHHHHH

[Erin]

Can't keep lying.
Can't even live properly.
Can't breathe correctly.
Can't stop crying.

[Erin]

Those are just a few reasons.

[Erin]

I DONT WANT TO MARK IT AS FONE I REALLY DONT IM NOT BRAVE ENOUGH FIR THIS

[Erin]

I love them. I love them so much.

[Erin]

Can someone fucking remind me while I read?

[Erin]

No.

[Erin]

You must remind yourself.

[Erin]

Shut up my dramatic self.

[Erin]

No, no, no, no, no, no.

[Erin]

I don't know. How do I???? Like whatttt

[Erin]

I'm ON THE EDGE of having a breakdown right now over this book so I seriously got to go but two book review tomorrow, answer roleplays, reply to pm, and breathe....or not.

[kavi ~he-him~]

:( *hugs*

[kavi ~he-him~]

btw Erin idk if I love Jonathan anymore. Like I love him as a friend, and I will always love him cause he impacted my life a lot, in a good way. but idk if I should let him go or not, like half of my heart, is still in love with him and doesn't want to let him go. so I'm just thinking that I'm just going to let him go for now. And I'll just see what happens. It's been 7 months since I've seen him so.

[kavi ~he-him~]

also I'm pan, but lately I feel like I lean towards girls more.

[Erin]

❄️Ƙανу тнє ναмριяє❄️ (Ɓνвαяму) (Aelonian) (AA family) wrote: ":( *hugs*"

Thankfully I did not do anything rash. I just cried a lot and then slept. ahh books. *hugs back*

[Erin]

❄️Ƙανу тнє ναмριяє❄️ (Ɓνвαяму) (Aelonian) (AA family) wrote: "btw Erin idk if I love Jonathan anymore. Like I love him as a friend, and I will always love him cause he impacted my life a lot, in a good way. but idk if I should let him go or not, like half of ..."

Yeah, that makes sense. Sometimes feelings just fade away over time, especially if a person isn't in your life as much as they were before because when they're in your life it's harder to feel anything else for them but when they're not it's easier to step back and think about how you actually feel.

[Erin]

❄️Ƙανу тнє ναмριяє❄️ (Ɓνвαяму) (Aelonian) (AA family) wrote: "also I'm pan, but lately I feel like I lean towards girls more."

It could be because you've never had feelings for a girl before, at least I'm assuming so feel free to correct me if I'm wrong, so that you're curious or something but I'm not exactly sure. There's many reasons for why that could be.

[Erin]

Valentine Ransom (call me Val) ~Phantom of the Library~ wrote: "I'm glad you're better Erin. :)"

Me too! That book literally killed me last night XD

[Erin]

I'll be back. I gotta go do dishes.

[Erin]

It was Delirium by Lauren Oliver.

[Erin]

So I was doing dishes, like I said and my feet were getting wet, which I SUPER HATE, and so I slided my feet on the towel in front of the oven and I was like "Sorry just drying my feet here" to my mom who was trying to cook and then she told me to just move the blanket on the floor closer to the sink so I did. It was soft, and that's my point of the story XD

[kavi ~he-him~]

Erin wrote: "❄️Ƙανу тнє ναмριяє❄️ (Ɓνвαяму) (Aelonian) (AA family) wrote: "btw Erin idk if I love Jonathan anymore. Like I love him as a friend, and I will always love him cause he impacted my life a lot, in a ..."

that is true, like I've been in love with Jon 2 years and I stayed in love with him even tho he broke up with me and we've been broken up for a really long time even tho we remained friends. like I still love him, but I'm just trying to move on for now, and I'm gone just see what happens because I just don't really want to stress over him anymore.

[kavi ~he-him~]

❄️Ƙανу тнє ναмριяє❄️ (Ɓνвαяму) (Aelonian) (AA family) wrote: "also I'm pan, but lately I feel like I lean towards girls more."

that is true, unless you count having fictional or celebrity crushes on girls.

[Erin]

❄️Ƙανу тнє ναмριяє❄️ (Ɓνвαяму) (Aelonian) (AA family) wrote: "Erin wrote: "❄️Ƙανу тнє ναмριяє❄️ (Ɓνвαяму) (Aelonian) (AA family) wrote: "btw Erin idk if I love Jonathan anymore. Like I love him as a friend, and I will always love him cause he impacted my life..."

Yeah, that makes sense. It's good to take a break from your feelings for a person. If you still love him after awhile of not thinking about him and of moving on, that tells you something, and if not that tells you something too. :D

[Erin]

❄️Ƙανу тнє ναмριяє❄️ (Ɓνвαяму) (Aelonian) (AA family) wrote: "❄️Ƙανу тнє ναмριяє❄️ (Ɓνвαяму) (Aelonian) (AA family) wrote: "also I'm pan, but lately I feel like I lean towards girls more."

that is true, unless you count having fictional or celebrity crushes ..."

I personally don't count it because anybody can crush on a celebrity or a fictional character, but that might just be how I view it.

[kavi ~he-him~]

Erin wrote: "❄️Ƙανу тнє ναмριяє❄️ (Ɓνвαяму) (Aelonian) (AA family) wrote: "Erin wrote: "❄️Ƙανу тнє ναмριяє❄️ (Ɓνвαяму) (Aelonian) (AA family) wrote: "btw Erin idk if I love Jonathan anymore. Like I love him as ..."

thanks Erin <33333 Ily

[kavi ~he-him~]

Erin wrote: "❄️Ƙανу тнє ναмριяє❄️ (Ɓνвαяму) (Aelonian) (AA family) wrote: "❄️Ƙανу тнє ναмριяє❄️ (Ɓνвαяму) (Aelonian) (AA family) wrote: "also I'm pan, but lately I feel like I lean towards girls more."

that is..."

that is true

[Erin]

❄️Ƙανу тнє ναмριяє❄️ (Ɓνвαяму) (Aelonian) (AA family) wrote: "Erin wrote: "❄️Ƙανу тнє ναмριяє❄️ (Ɓνвαяму) (Aelonian) (AA family) wrote: "Erin wrote: "❄️Ƙανу тнє ναмριяє❄️ (Ɓνвαяму) (Aelonian) (AA family) wrote: "btw Erin idk if I love Jonathan anymore. Like I..."

No problem! <333333 I love you too.

[Erin]

❄️Ƙανу тнє ναмριяє❄️ (Ɓνвαяму) (Aelonian) (AA family) wrote: "Erin wrote: "❄️Ƙανу тнє ναмριяє❄️ (Ɓνвαяму) (Aelonian) (AA family) wrote: "❄️Ƙανу тнє ναмριяє❄️ (Ɓνвαяму) (Aelonian) (AA family) wrote: "also I'm pan, but lately I feel like I lean towards girls mo..."

Yeah :D

[kavi ~he-him~]

also one of my twitter friends was shipping me and my other twitter friend together XD

[Erin]

❄️Ƙανу тнє ναмριяє❄️ (Ɓνвαяму) (Aelonian) (AA family) wrote: "also one of my twitter friends was shipping me and my other twitter friend together XD"

Hahahaaha cool XD you have interesting friends lol

[Erin]

I love people's responses and reactions XD

[Erin]

I'm a weird Human lolol

[Erin]

I capitizile human ahhhhh

[kavi ~he-him~]

Erin wrote: "❄️Ƙανу тнє ναмριяє❄️ (Ɓνвαяму) (Aelonian) (AA family) wrote: "also one of my twitter friends was shipping me and my other twitter friend together XD"

Hahahaaha cool XD you have interesting friends..."

XDD

[kavi ~he-him~]

Erin wrote: "I love people's responses and reactions XD"

SAME XD

[Erin]

❄️Ƙανу тнє ναмριяє❄️ (Ɓνвαяму) (Aelonian) (AA family) wrote: "Erin wrote: "❄️Ƙανу тнє ναмριяє❄️ (Ɓνвαяму) (Aelonian) (AA family) wrote: "also one of my twitter friends was shipping me and my other twitter friend together XD"

Hahahaaha cool XD you have intere..."

But like for real, you make good friends. I know cuz I'm one XDXD

[Erin]

❄️Ƙανу тнє ναмριяє❄️ (Ɓνвαяму) (Aelonian) (AA family) wrote: "Erin wrote: "I love people's responses and reactions XD"

SAME XD"

YASSS XD

[Erin]

My mom was crying and I feel like an asshole.

[Erin]

Oh it's not because of me or anything to do with me.

[Erin]

It's her teeth.

[kavi ~he-him~]

Erin wrote: "❄️Ƙανу тнє ναмριяє❄️ (Ɓνвαяму) (Aelonian) (AA family) wrote: "Erin wrote: "❄️Ƙανу тнє ναмριяє❄️ (Ɓνвαяму) (Aelonian) (AA family) wrote: "also one of my twitter friends was shipping me and my other ..."

You are an amazing friend <333333333

[Erin]

Valentine Ransom (call me Val) ~Phantom of the Library~ wrote: "What about her teeth?"

They're hurting her because she didn't take care of her teeth for so long.

[Alia ~you are not your anxiety~]

Erin sorry to burst in like this but OH MY GOODNESS, you should read the book Challenger Deep by Neal Shusterman.
It's great for anyone to read but for you all in particular...

I won't say any more other than that it can be depressing and it's by no means fun but it is just... indescribable.

And sorry to say the same things again Val XD

[Erin]

❄️Ƙανу тнє ναмριяє❄️ (Ɓνвαяму) (Aelonian) (AA family) wrote: "Erin wrote: "❄️Ƙανу тнє ναмριяє❄️ (Ɓνвαяму) (Aelonian) (AA family) wrote: "Erin wrote: "❄️Ƙανу тнє ναмριяє❄️ (Ɓνвαяму) (Aelonian) (AA family) wrote: "also one of my twitter friends was shipping me ..."

Thanks, I try. And so are you! <33333333

[Alia ~you are not your anxiety~]

If you need to get out of a reading slump this is the book. You will not understand at the beginning but just keep reading it and you will... omg

[Erin]

Alia [permanent semi-hiatus] wrote: "Erin sorry to burst in like this but OH MY GOODNESS, you should read the book Challenger Deep by Neal Shusterman.
It's great for anyone to read but for you all in particular...

I won't say any mo..."

You're completely fine! And alright I will! I'm going to request it from the library and get it and read it and yeah! Thanks for the recommendation! :)

Ooh, well hopefully I'll be fine! I'm still going to read it even with that but thank you for the warning! I really do appreciate it!

[Erin]

Alia [permanent semi-hiatus] wrote: "If you need to get out of a reading slump this is the book. You will not understand at the beginning but just keep reading it and you will... omg"

And thats actually super helpful because I feel one coming on with school coming at me on Monday, so thanks again!