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[Erin]

I went on a walk and now I feel better

[Erin]

The sky was pretty

[Erin]

I prayed on the swing for a moment, just to say thank you

[Erin]

They remind me that there are still beautiful things in the world, that I still have a chance to do something

[Erin]

I keep not listening because feelings hurts because it was always easier to pretend I couldn't feel and I'm not able to do that anymore

[Erin]

Valentine Ransom (call me Val) ~Phantom of the Library~ ~Mr Flirt~ ~Sunflower's marido~ wrote: "Little reminders keep me going."

Me too. I always forget about them until they're right in front of me, but little reminders tend to mean more.

[Erin]

They can be harder to see, too

[Erin]

I like being happier even when the sounds of my family annoy me lol

[Erin]

Ahhhh

[Erin]

I'm drinking hot chocolate and I love it

[Erin]

Get some and quickly!!! Have you heard of the Apocalypse that's happening this year??? Hot chocolate is the only way to survive!!!!!!!

[Erin]

I read it in an article in the internet!!

[Erin]

You're looking through a window, right??? They've already claimed the outdoor land for themselves. That's the only reason I returned home.

[kavi ~he-him~]

Erin wrote: "Like all of you deserve better than me."

I love you so much Erin *hugs*

[Erin]

Alex ~They/them~ (The Phoenix Reincarnated) (Bvbarmy) (Aelonian) (aa family) (Royal council) wrote: "Erin wrote: "Like all of you deserve better than me."

I love you so much Erin *hugs*"

I'm sorry, Alex. I love you, too *hugs*

[Erin]

I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry

[Erin]

I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry

[Erin]

I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry

[Erin]

I should've stayed gone, but I couldn't sleep so I just thought... That I could just show up here and act like I never left, like this week didn't even happen

[Erin]

I'm so tired

[Erin]

Every time I close my eyes though, I start to panic

[Erin]

I don't want to be here but I don't want to disappear

[Erin]

So where am I supposed to be?

[Erin]

I should start taking my sleep medicine again but I'm afraid

[Erin]

Afraid of the fact I might not be able to swallow it, a hope for sleep that'll never come

[Erin]

Afraid of the reminder I can't swallow pills

[Erin]

Of anxiety that won't leave me

[Erin]

I'm so tired of living

[Erin]

I don't want to live for my mother

[Erin]

She's bringing Bill back into our lives

[Erin]

I want to throw up

[Erin]

Why can't she just have neither

[Erin]

Why does she need a mean and to keep depending on people

[Erin]

Why doesn't she realize it hurts us, too

[Erin]

Every time I think about them I want to throw up.

[Erin]

And so just stop thinking about him

[Erin]

Well then she's either talking about him or he's on the phone or he's here

[Erin]

I can't keep having anxiety attacks over everything my mom does

[Erin]

I need to move on

[Erin]

I need to live

[Erin]

I can't make a promise though

[Erin]

Not again

[Erin]

I can't keep doing this

[Erin]

I'm sorry for leaving but I'm more sorry for returning.

[Erin]

I keep being so negative and I literally had to step away this week and I'm just back to it

[Erin]

I keep having myself for being negative but how can I not be

[Erin]

I'm so tired and sorry and

[Erin]

I just really don't want to hate myself anymore

[Erin]

This week was supposed to be great

[Erin]

I finished my musical