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trying to feel like me again
message 14101:
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Erin
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Feb 17, 2024 09:19AM
I still believe I don't deserve good things
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that I don't deserve to get or to be better
like I'm slipping and falling through the cracks of life
like I can't breathe or process anything because I'm still stuck in the past
and there is no getting better, there's just learning how to cope
I swear it's cause my sibling's pregnant
I'm acting like the kid's already here lmaooo
well I do have to censor myself when I'm on the phone with my nephews
I just find it funny cuz I used to cuss up a storm in my journals when I was a kid
still haven't done my astronomy homework
do you ever feel like no matter what you do you're doomed to fail
I'M SORRY I DON'T KNOW WHY I'M LIKE THIS
EVERYTHING I THINK AND DO AND SAY IS SO RANDOM
My sister is living in a tent right now
like it's been snowing and that fucker lied to us
she should have just stayed until she found some place instead of going to a hotel
like this is her fault and I'm angry because I can't help her anymore than she lets me
she literally stole from me and I still would accept her back
she's a terrible person yet I love her
and she makes me so angry and yet I still think she deserves more than I do
and I'll believe her if she says she changed even if she hasn't because I want to believe her
I want to believe that she's good at heart
that she isn't just walking away to hurt us
and the whole situation with her makes me feel so fucking sad and helpless and like I'm just taking up a place that could be hers
i feel so fucking bad all the fucking time
it's personal
Books mentioned in this topic
30 Things I Love About Myself (other topics)Challenger Deep (other topics)
Throes (other topics)
P.S. I Still Love You (other topics)
Delirium (other topics)
