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[Erin]

ugh

[Erin]

I hate myself

[Erin]

maybe I'll try to write

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that sounds like fun

[Erin]

okay okay okay

[Erin]

RICK RIORDAN IS LITERALLY SO AMAZING I'M CRYING

[Erin]

LIKE I ALREADY KNEW HE WAS AMAZING BUT HE PROVED IT AGAIN

[Erin]

EVERY TIME I WANT TO GIVE UP ON HUMANITY THERE HE IS BEING FREAKING AWESOME AND AHHHHH I LOVE HIM

[Erin]

A reader asked him a question and he said something about not liking Nico because he was gay and Riordan responded politely and lengthily by telling him to basically think about the reason why he didn't like Nico as a gay character and it was so freaking beautiful

[Erin]

also I wrote some poetry

[Erin]

Also if anyone wants my wattpad to read more of my writing my name is Belleutiful- feel free to comment and message me on there

[Erin]

Goodreads used to have it where you can publish your writing on here but not anymore so I don't know if anyone who reads this used to read my writing but I'm publishing on wattpad again

[Erin]

I'll also be putting my poetry here if you want to stay on goodreads
---> https://www.goodreads.com/topic/show/...

[Erin]

I'm working on multiple projects right now but I haven't really published anything besides the poetry

[Erin]

I updated my poetry! Look above to see where you can find it!

[Erin]

anyways

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ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

[Erin]

I REALLY WANT TO FUCKING SCREAMMMMM

[Erin]

I'M SAD AND ANGRY AND FRUSTRATED AND IN PAIN AND I JUST UGH

[Erin]

So fucking much has happened

[Erin]

and I'm doing really bad

[Erin]

and I keep trying to be okay

[Erin]

I really am trying

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but idk if I can keep doing this or if I can stay here

[Erin]

I don't want to leave my sister

[Erin]

I'm worried about her

[Erin]

and I'll always be worried about her

[Erin]

but lately it feels like nobody gives a fuck about me

[Erin]

like I'm just the very in the back ground, supporting character to everybody else's life stories

[Erin]

and that makes therapy really hard

[Erin]

like therapy is already really hard

[Erin]

but that makes it worse

[Erin]

I feel like I'm suffocating

[Erin]

I just want everything to be over with but I'm still stuck living for other people

[Erin]

which I know sounds super bitchy but

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idk

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it's the truth I guess

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I'm exhausted

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my self-harm urges are getting worse

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they're on my mind all the time

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I keep coming back to them

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and I keep hurting myself

[Erin]

like not intentionally well not really at least

[Erin]

idk how to explain it

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and everyone has just been pissing me off lately

[Erin]

and I think it's a side effect of my medication because it's the increase of irritability and it's like a side effect of all the medication I'm on

[Erin]

and I'm just really fucking annoyed

[Erin]

I just want to quit

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and give up

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and end this life and myself and everything