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[Erin]

dark times by Ben Platt

13 is hard enough
So busy growing up
Now, you're sitting on a secret no one knows
You see him after school
He barely looks at you
'Cause you're both afraid that people might suppose
I'll see you in the mirror when you're older
For now, just keep your head up on your shoulders
Life goes too fast
Heart breaks in two
Tough times don't last
Tough people do
So, wipe those tears from your crying eyes
'Cause you only see the light shine in dark times
18, you fall in love
You think you found the one
And he calls you up to say there's someonе else
Feels like thе world's in flames
You give yourself the blame
'Cause the landing wasn't worth how hard you fell
I'll see you in the mirror when you're older
For now, just keep your head up on your shoulders
Life goes too fast
Heart breaks in two
Tough times don't last
Tough people do
So, wipe those tears from your crying eyes
'Cause you only see the light shine in dark times
Oh-oh, in dark times
Oh-oh-oh, in dark times
We're 27 now
Don't have it figured out
But, at least, no one can say we haven't grown
Scars turn to memories
They keep us company
But it's nice to know we're not in this alone
Life goes too fast
Heart breaks in two
Tough times don't last
Tough people do
So, wipe those tears from your crying eyes
'Cause you only see the light shine
You only see the light shine in dark times

[Erin]

carefully by Ben Platt

I always found it funny
That your favorite part of a movie
Was trying to guess the end before I could
I should have seen it coming
But I got so lost in the story
It was over long before I understood
And I can't stop your stone from rolling in
And wrecking things
But shelter me until it's trough
And all this time you've had a gentle way of holding me
So could you please release me that way too?
'Cause it's okay to say goodbye
Some things live, but all things die
And I can let go
Of all of the things I hoped we'd be
And I don't need the reasons why
'Cause we both know
How hard we tried
If coming apart
And breaking my heart is what you need
Break it carefully
Break it carefully
Well don't you think it's funny?
That I'm asking you for your mercy
After all the nights you asked me for a dance?
I guess I'm kinda lucky
That we got so close to the real thing
When so many never even get the chance
And I can't stop your stone from rolling in
And wrecking things
But shelter me until it's through
And all this time you've had a gentle way of holding me
So could you please release me that way too?
'Cause it's okay to say goodbye
Some things live, but all things die
And I can't let go
Of all of the things I hoped we'd be
And I don't need the reasons why
'Cause we both know
How hard we tried
If coming apart
And breaking my heart is what you need
Break it carefully
I could leave all this behind me
If I could remember you kindly
I could leave all this behind me
If I could remember you kindly
Oh, I could leave all this behind me
If I could remember you kindly
Oh, I could leave all this behind me
If I could remember you kindly
Oh, I could leave all this behind me
If I could remember you kindly
Oh, I could leave all this behind me
If I could remember you kindly
Oh, I could leave all this behind me
If I could remember you kindly
Oh, I could leave all this behind me
If I could remember you kindly
If coming apart
And breaking my heart is what you need
Break it carefully
Break it carefully

[Erin]

those are some of my favorite songs rn

[Erin]

I'm not doing well rn

[Erin]

but that's okay

[Erin]

I keep questioning my thoughts and feelings but it's not like they really matter anymore

[Erin]

I keep finding new music though so that's fun

[Erin]

hi

[Erin]

I'm in a weird mood again

[Erin]

I don't really know why but I just feel so sad

[Erin]

and it feels like there's this heavy weight on me

[Erin]

and like I'm slowly suffocating

[Erin]

I just wish everything would stop

[Erin]

idk how else to explain it

[Erin]

Maybe I'm just tired

[Erin]

did goodreads get rid of the writing section on here and why am I just noticing

[Erin]

unless I'm imagining its existence but I don't think so

[Erin]

I'm exhausted

[Erin]

and really hot

[Erin]

and I feel sick

[Erin]

my mom and bill has been fighting for the past few days like nonstop and there's been a lot of fighting and I just haven't felt motivated to do anything

[Erin]

ahhh I won a goodreads giveaway

[Erin]

Erin wrote: "ahhh I won a goodreads giveaway"

Actually I won two lol

[Erin]

I just feel so fucking sad

[Erin]

Levi left today like planned to go see their boyfriend and I'm happy for them but now I just feel alone

[Erin]

like my mom's here but she just feels so far away

[Erin]

she's barely talking to me and we're in different rooms and idk

[Erin]

I feel like she's choosing a man over her kids once again and it's the same man whose a piece of shit and she knows it but she's still fighting for a relationship that she obviously is the only one who actually gives a fuck about it

[Erin]

idek why he's with her

[Erin]

they're toxic together

[Erin]

they're never going to be able to have a good relationship again because my mother has trust issues because of him and is a narcissist and that isn't a good combination

[Erin]

my head hurts

[Erin]

I keep just wanting to cry

[Erin]

Tomorrow I need to get out of this house even for just a little while

[Erin]

It'll be cold but I'll walk somewhere

[Erin]

I think I thought that I could just come back home and be fine

[Erin]

like although I was scared it wouldn't be fine a part of me still hoped it would be fine

[Erin]

and maybe it is fine

[Erin]

but it's so hard being back home after knowing what I've done and how far I've come since then

[Erin]

I'm home alone right now and although it was typical at college being home alone was something my mother hadn't allowed for awhile and the last time I was here home alone I did something stupid

[Erin]

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

[Erin]

they're fighting again

[Erin]

I'm so exhausted

[Erin]

I just got done with therapy

[Erin]

"why'd you just come into my life to fuck it up again?"- mom

[Erin]

me whose listening from a different room: because you let him

[Erin]

My insomnia is just progressively getting worse.

[Erin]

I feel sick

[Erin]

This is a great way to start the year lol

[Erin]

buttttttttttt on the other hand