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trying to feel like me again
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Erin
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Jun 12, 2022 01:34PM
I'm so self-centered
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do you ever have a conversation, forget about it, and remember it when somebody else finds out that the thing the conversation was about was happening
I knew my sister was self-harming and completely forgot about it until today when my mom found out
like I blocked out the memory or something
It's so scary forgetting things like this
I really hate myself right now and I'm freaking out
like I feel like I'm frozen in time sometimes
Thank you thank you! I had a moment where I felt like I was denying what I wanted to do and needed to just come out and be proud of it. Why haven't you read it out of curiosity? I just know it was really popular when hunger games was. had you heard bad things because that's honestly why my friends and I restructured the whole universe LOL
YES it would be so fun to write a book about those folks! they're like the more wholesome version of my friend's divergent fanfic family with five siblings lol. Hope you can get in to see the psychiatrist soon, withdrawal from not getting a refill is terrible (and you should probably tell the office that too/ask if you can get a refill and then see the doc because doctors usually don't want you withdrawing for bureaucratic reasons).
Oh nice!! Good for you and your sisters! I'm sorry about the self harm, and it's okay to forget because you were likely traumatized and it's a defense mechanism. hopefully your sister gets help!
I felt like that too at one point when I was trying to decide on a major! Maybe it's just part of the process lol. I'm really glad that you've been able to be proud of it though!Oh no no no, I have read it! I meant that I hadn't known you'd gotten into Divergent again because HP had been ruined for you. I absolutely love the Divergent series so much, like probably more than I ever loved HP in the first place or the Hunger Games. I just feel like I haven't been a part of the universe of Divergent in a long time, like I read it in middle school and me and my sister had a whole thing for it
Yesss!!! And omg that's funny. But yeah me too and that's a good point, I might try calling them but it's super hard to even get them to answer their phones because their system is like really stupid
Yes!! And me too and you're probably right but I hope so too
my family is great, the amount of things said in the last hour has got me dying lmao
"do you want the drug pot or the pan pot?""are you asking me to buy $91 of pot? Aren't you supposed to be a cop?"
-look underneath the cabinets
*looks underneath cabinets*
-there's a wall there
- how do you look underneath a cabinet
I just got more printer ink and I'm excited
The only cost was two cut fingers by my nonbinary sibling may their fingers heal well
I just found a book called The Vegetarian and it seems so weird but amazing and omg
I'm a vegetarian whose going to read The Vegetarian
I got to pick my dorm room for college this week though and I'm really excited
Sometimes I feel like the words my mom says kills me
Meanwhile, she's moving on as if what she just said doesn't hurt
She likes to think she does but she doesn't
Yes she has issues she needs to work through
and it's not my fault that she had kids and decided to keep us
Sometimes for the sake of your mental health, you have to let someone go.
because I've seen what it does to her when her kids don't come back
but if she continues to break me I might just have to break her
because I can't keep pretending that the way she treats us doesn't affect me
and I don't blame her for being mentally ill, I blame her for making it worse
She wasn't a good mom but I love her anyways
She would scream at me when I had panic attacks
She would scream at me when I wouldn't talk
She would scream at me when I finally found my voice
She would yell when we didn't make eye contact
it's personal
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