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trying to feel like me again
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Erin
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Feb 27, 2022 03:12PM
and I'm trying so hard to be okay
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and I'm starting to think I'm never going to be
I feel like I'm playing a game in which I don't know any of the rules and everybody else does
I know logically that that's not true but still
It's a new month
Erin wrote: "I'm so dramatic lol"Same lol
Lillian wrote: "Erin wrote: "I'm so dramatic lol"Same lol"
Hahaha yay
Guess who is getting a new therapist because her old one is leaving?
Omg hi!!! It's been so long!! How are you???
ikr i've been great!! what about you??
I met my new therapist, it was really weird
I can't really imagine doing therapy with anyone else
that's why I was sticking with the one I had
despite how terrible she was at keeping appointments
I had to convince myself to keep her and then she just leaves
she acts like she cares but she doesn't
I'm just another person on some damn list
I honestly want to quit therapy but I'm scared I'll end up like my mom
my new therapist specializes in trauma and I think that's what I need
I'll have to meet her in person though
that scares me
but I can't exactly talk about emotional abuse in the house of my abuser
twist my words into something I can't recognise
Take a deep breath. Inhale for four seconds. Exhale for four seconds. That’s the first thing they tell you to do when you experience an anxiety attack. It may sound stupid, but when you’re hyperventilating and the world turns into a blurry mess, it’s nice to be reminded to breathe. Someone isn’t always going to be there to tell you to just breathe. Sometimes you’ll be alone and you’ll have to learn how to do it on your own. I know it sounds scary, it feels that way too, but when you experience anxiety you’ve got to be prepared. Heck, that’s a load of shit. You can never be prepared enough for an anxiety attack. Trust me, I’ve tried. And let me tell you this, it’s not your fault. You’re not broken. You’re human and your mind works a little different, and that’s okay.
hugs and hellos from here!!
Hi!!!!!!! How have you been??? *hugs*
I'm doing okay!! 3/4 of the way through my first year of college, it's crazy!! Just remember it's ok if you don't know what you're doing next year just yet, I didn't at this time
Alia ~you are not your anxiety~ wrote: "hugs and hellos from here!!"alia!! hi!!
Alia ~you are not your anxiety~ wrote: "I'm doing okay!! 3/4 of the way through my first year of college, it's crazy!! Just remember it's ok if you don't know what you're doing next year just yet, I didn't at this time"Omg, that's awesome!! And thanks I really needed to hear that :)
guyss I'm going to college to be a writer despite saying I wouldn't because of money
I was supposed to study something that'd guarantee I have a job but whoops
It's just I know exactly what I want to do (for the most part) and that is being an author one day and I feel like college is the perfect way to do that because it'll give me experience and critiques and hopefully a portfolio of some of my works that I hope to finish in the next couple of years
you've got this!! and hi Alex!!!
I'm doing pretty good today and it feels weird
it's personal
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30 Things I Love About Myself (other topics)Challenger Deep (other topics)
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