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[Erin]

stupid

[Erin]

I'm so stupid

[Erin]

I just wish it was over already

[Erin]

I'm tired of fighting

[Erin]

Hi

[Erin]

I'm doing really bad right now

[Erin]

I just want to run away from everybody and everything

[Erin]

I feel like I'm suffocating

[Erin]

I'm just so tired

[Erin]

I'm getting worse

[Erin]

Every day, I just get worse

[Erin]

I'm scared

[Alia ~you are not your anxiety~]

Hi Erin!! I'm so sorry times are rough, big hugs

[Alia ~you are not your anxiety~]

Lmk if I can help in any way

[Erin]

Lillian wrote: "*hugs*"

*hugs back* Thanks :)

[Erin]

Alia ~you are not your anxiety~ wrote: "Lmk if I can help in any way"

Alia ~you are not your anxiety~ wrote: "Hi Erin!! I'm so sorry times are rough, big hugs"

Hiiii!!! Thanks for that. Seriously, thanks.

How have you been???

[Erin]

Ahhhh

[Erin]

I'm doing bad

[Erin]

I haven't seen my therapist in over a week because she didn't show up for our last appointment

[Erin]

Am I so terrible that nobody wants to show up

[Erin]

Just kidding

[Erin]

I don't care

[Erin]

I want to quit therapy

[Erin]

I want to just go somewhere and die

[Erin]

That kind of thinking is why I can't quit therapy

[Erin]

Maybe I should just let them put me on a bunch of pills so that one day I'll freak out and relapse and decide to take them all again

[Erin]

I'm so fucking sad all the time and so tired and so angry

[Erin]

My mom likes to stick with men who have fucked up our family

[Erin]

and wonders why I have trust issues

[Erin]

I just wish I could kill myself

[Erin]

but my brain won't let me

[Erin]

I have an obligation to live for these fucking people

[Erin]

because I can't leave them

[Erin]

which is why I'm still in this damn house

[Erin]

I need to get out

[Erin]

I need to get away

[Erin]

but the moment I do it's over

[Erin]

and as much as I want it to be over

[Erin]

I know for some people it won't ever be over with

[Erin]

But I'm the only one who seems to be struggling this bad

[Erin]

Everyone else is able to figure out their shit and move on

[Erin]

but I'm stuck

[Erin]

I just want it to be over

[Erin]

I'm tired of reliving events

[Erin]

I'm tired of feeling trapped

[Erin]

I'm tired of being the only one who gives a damn

[Erin]

I just want to be okay

[Erin]

I don't think I've ever been okay

[Erin]

and I don't know how to be okay

[Erin]

I just fucking hate this