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[Erin]

I should

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I mean, I want to

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Hiiii

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My head hurts

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I hope anyone who celebrates had a good holiday this year and if you don't celebrate I hope you had a good day anyway

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I'm late but whatever

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I'm going to sleep now haha

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I'm doing bad

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yesterday was my last day at my job

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my father is staying with us for a couple days to take my brother to school

[Erin]

I'm more than upset about that

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I'm pissed off

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and I feel trapped in this stupid home that I can't wait to leave

[Erin]

I just wanna go

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anywhere but here

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find me a place that actually feels like home

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let me get out of here

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I feel like I'm suffocating more in this house than I ever did at my job

[Erin]

I miss my job right now

[Erin]

my toxic job

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that nearly killed me haha

[Erin]

I'm a mess

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Hiiii

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I'm looking at an apartment today

[Erin]

I'm excited

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and scared

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but mostly excited

[Erin]

My mom doesn't love me.

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I don't know if she ever did.

[Erin]

She wants me to shut up

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She says she's defending me

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but she's hurting everybody else

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she says she's doing it for me

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but I never asked for this

[Erin]

this pain

[Erin]

She says she doesn't want to speak to me

[Erin]

I hope she never does

[Erin]

If she calls I won't answer

[Erin]

I can't handle her

[Erin]

I tried to move on from the past

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tried to convince myself she's changing

[Erin]

but she's not

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and it all hurts too damn much

[Erin]

She's my trigger and I hate saying that

[Erin]

But it's the truth

[Erin]

It's her voice inside my head

[Erin]

I can't escape it

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Hiii

[Erin]

The house viewing went terrible

[Erin]

We didn't get to view it lol