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trying to feel like me again
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Erin
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Dec 08, 2021 08:30PM
and I want to pick them all out
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*hugs back* It's fine, and thanks for that. The same goes for you, if you need someone I'm here for you too. And of course, I still consider you a friend! And thanks for saying that too, I needed to hear that, even if I didn't know it until now.
Sorry for just disappearing last night! I kinda had an anxiety attack and just got off abruptly so yeah that happened
but mostly about how sometimes people just leave and you can't do a damn thing about it
and sometimes they just start to slowly fade over time and it's up to you whether you try to reach out or not
sure the other person can but stop making excuses for why you don't, you know
my brother just accidentally played a song that's on my playlist in case I die which why I have such a playlist I can't remember
it's stupid but I thought it'd help them cope
how does somebody cope with that though
that's always been my question and it's the reason I haven't been able to successfully kill myself
I wish I didn't give so much of a damn about everybody fucking else
it's also why I stuck around this past year
it's why I'm moving in with my sister
fucking shit is anything I do for myself
I feel myself slowly starting to resent them because of the way I am and I hate it
I don't want to be this kind of person
I told her I was at a 2, that was the most honest thing I said
I gave her a bunch of bullcrap is what it felt like
but it's fine. It's better that way. I can't afford to go to the hospital. I can't afford to relapse right now.
it's personal
Books mentioned in this topic
30 Things I Love About Myself (other topics)Challenger Deep (other topics)
Throes (other topics)
P.S. I Still Love You (other topics)
Delirium (other topics)
