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trying to feel like me again
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Erin
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Nov 01, 2021 11:35AM
write it out. let it out, the only way you know how
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that's what I'd always thought but I was wrong
I mean, I come on here and looking at this journal
It's all negative and I just feel more alone than ever
all the good moments get overshadowed by clouds of darkness
journaling for me and people like me is just creating a storm but losing control after just a moment
I thought I knew where I was going but I didn't
hey, i'm sorry if this is weird for a stranger to just comment on here but i have some journaling advice???
it gets bad for me sometimes (i do it mostly in a physical journal) and when that happens i usually try to write about good things or random stuff or nothing at all so that the journal doesn't become the thing that is just for venting.
sorry if that doesn't help but it was just a suggestion
it gets bad for me sometimes (i do it mostly in a physical journal) and when that happens i usually try to write about good things or random stuff or nothing at all so that the journal doesn't become the thing that is just for venting.
sorry if that doesn't help but it was just a suggestion
alice仙境 wrote: "hey, i'm sorry if this is weird for a stranger to just comment on here but i have some journaling advice???it gets bad for me sometimes (i do it mostly in a physical journal) and when that happens..."
No you're fine!!! Anyone can comment :)
Also I totally get and appreciate what you're saying, so thank you for it.
While I do mostly vent here, I do have a physical journal and I'm just not supposed to be journaling because anything could potentially trigger me, even if I'm writing about good things. It can give me a memory and trigger my PTSD and that's what my therapist is worried about I think.
It does help though to remind me to focus on positive things so thank you.
Erin wrote: "shoot someone's here"It was one of my sister's. She randomly came over
She came over again today to eat after basically inviting herself and my mom just went with it 😂
Oh right I was actually going to explain why my therapist said I shouldn't journal before my sister came but basically like I kinda said a few minutes ago I got recently diagnosed with PTSD sorta it's weird they gave me an analysis thing and then didn't talk about the results for awhile and a possible case of a dissociative disorder and so she's afraid I'll get triggered by going over something and be alone and then not be able to cope
So yeah I should stay away from nonfiction she says lmao as if I'm not a poet
I'm not giving up poetry or songwriting so she can hush
even if it triggers me bc it's how I cope too
What helps me cope triggers me upon rereading like what
Perfect I just won't read what I write lol
Look at this weird master piece I just found from my old writings:They weeped so loudly,
their guts full of self hatred,
but then the crows came,
and ate their insides.
-i still don't know which was a better feeling.
Erin wrote: "Perfect I just won't read what I write lol"Oh I just realized I did the opposite whoops it was an accident don't tell my therapist lmao
That's what I'm calling my next novel
The one she wanted me to write but didn't stick around to see
We never prepared for a future a part
She stole the rational side of my brain I guess
As long as I'm in the picture, I'm not meant to work out with anyone
I let friends leave because they shouldn't fight for me
it's personal
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