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[Erin]

I'm tired

[Erin]

of being myself

[Erin]

so much

[Erin]

and most days I wish I was

[Erin]

somebody

[Erin]

anybody

[Erin]

else

[Erin]

but then I remember you

[Erin]

and the way everything had almost felt okay

[Erin]

and how you made me almost think

[Erin]

I could do it

[Erin]

and suddenly I can't breathe

[Erin]

and I lose all feeling

[Erin]

and I can't remember who I am anymore

[Erin]

.

[Erin]

The truth about me is

[Erin]

I am made up entirely

[Erin]

of other people

[Erin]

despite always being alone

[Erin]

I am a wallflower who has grown

[Erin]

addicted to the stories of others

[Erin]

and now nothing I am is me

[Erin]

Even now I write like my sister

[Erin]

I draw like my brother

[Erin]

I love like you

[Erin]

and I'm fucked up like my mother

[Erin]

oh and my father

[Erin]

oh don't get me started on him

[Erin]

Don't

[Erin]

He's the worst

[Erin]

Next

[Erin]

you wouldn't dance with me

[Erin]

even if just one person was watching us

[Erin]

you wouldn't touch me if someone was looking at us

[Erin]

I should have known

[Erin]

should've guessed your games

[Erin]

shouldn't have loved you so carelessly

[Erin]

if you just wanted something reckless

[Erin]

someone brainless

[Erin]

someone numb

[Erin]

Pfft that was random XD

[Erin]

Where does all this bullshit come from

[Erin]

I don't have relationships with people in case you didn't know.

Fun fact: I actually detest people XD

[Erin]

maybe all my inspiration comes from watching my moms toxic relationships

[Erin]

and you know

[Erin]

the emotional abuse

[Erin]

and the blame for the failure of said relationships

[Erin]

and

[Erin]

the other shit

[Erin]

Ow