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trying to feel like me again
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Erin
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Jun 27, 2021 03:50PM
Maybe she did belong to a different time
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When I talk about her it's all vague but that's how it's always going to be because she deserves privacy even if she's long gone from this site
I can't lie though- a part of me is always going to love her.
Even as years pass and she forgets who I am because people always forget the unremarkable mentally ill writer at least until long after their dead
I'll remember her until my brain shuts down and she'll be the last thing I remember before I completely lose my mind because I will and I am
But if I die before I lose my mind- whether it be by accident or I finally manage to commit suicide- please know that it wasn't an act of insanity but a final act of the sanity that I have.
Also it wouldn't be about me escaping pain
It'd be more about stopping myself from hurting somebody else
It's just an explanation in case a future me ever gets too bad
There's really nothing to worry about
I'm gonna go because my phone's gonna die but I wanna go out on a somewhat positive note so
For whatever I was spewing about last time
I'm doing NaNoWriMo and I hate everything that I wrote yesterday
So I think I'm trying a complete different route today
Alex ~They/them~ ~Annabeth Chase and Alex Fierro are the best~ wrote: "erin!!"Alex!!!!
I miss when everything didn't remind me of her
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30 Things I Love About Myself (other topics)Challenger Deep (other topics)
Throes (other topics)
P.S. I Still Love You (other topics)
Delirium (other topics)
