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trying to feel like me again
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Erin
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Jan 18, 2021 04:00PM
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i wish i was on drugs that made me high
but this is me natural as a natural being
maybe that's why i feel heartbroken all the time
probably because it's so noisy around me
like everything i say and do and think and feel is annoying
from the way i think to the way i breathe to my eating habits to every imperfect thing about me to my teeth and my legs and my incapability of keeping a routine and my back and forth thoughts that confuse everyone including myself
for the first time since I've been out of the hospital, that last time
because when people around they see everything you don't want them to see
because nobody thinks the way i fucking do
nobody notices all the little things I have to obsess with
it isn't a choice to feel these things
because if it is a choice everybody would be happy
Lillian wrote: "Erin wrote: "i feel like im annoying"No, you're not"
thanks! :) sorry I didn't see this last night
I cussed a lot yesterday maybe that's why
but I hadn't cussed a lot before and it's done it
but my fractured ankle doesn't whattt
migraines hurt more than my ankle did
it's personal
Books mentioned in this topic
30 Things I Love About Myself (other topics)Challenger Deep (other topics)
Throes (other topics)
P.S. I Still Love You (other topics)
Delirium (other topics)
