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[Erin]

and my best friend is going through so much worse rn and she feels worse and i can't do anything

[Erin]

ahhhhhhhhhhh

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i feel sick

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i already said that

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but im like pissed and sad and urgh

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i can't breathe

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why is is so hard to breathe

[Erin]

i can't

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i can't keep doing this

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everything hurts

[Erin]

i want to starve myself

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to never eat another bite

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not for the sake of losing weight

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but for the sake of doing something

[Erin]

idk

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sorry

[Erin]

forget this

[Erin]

forget me

[Erin]

hi

[Erin]

I'm back

[Erin]

and I'm sad again

[Erin]

My stomach hurts

[Erin]

Really bad

[Erin]

And it's so hot

[Erin]

I wish she would stop smoking indoors

[Erin]

Guess who

[Erin]

My mom oc

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She better be the only one that smokes or I'll kill

[Erin]

I wanna cry

[Erin]

Im lowkey kinda really confused

[Erin]

I'm about to cry

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so much

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I'm so fucking angry

[Erin]

it's like she says one thing

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and means something else

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I'm angry

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and annoyed

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and I'm leaving no matter what the results are

[Erin]

I'd give anything for it to have been me and not him

[Erin]

I wish it was me who had died back then

[Erin]

why wasn't it me

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why'd it have to be him

[Erin]

and I hate myself for thinking this way

[Erin]

and for being this way

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I just wish I was okay enough that I wasn't this fucked up

[Erin]

I don't want to stay

[Erin]

but I don't want to leave either

[Erin]

I just wish everyone would let me die

[Erin]

because I don't think I'm going to last much longer

[Erin]

I'm in so much pain