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[Erin]

to talk to about my thoughts or feelings

[Erin]

because she made me feel like I couldn't

[Erin]

she was so far away

[Erin]

and I went to the hospital twice in just the last couple months over my suicidal thoughts

[Erin]

and she asked me

[Erin]

as if I had all the answers because I was a suicidal person

[Erin]

well I don't

[Erin]

I barely know what to say to get me out of bed in the morning

[Erin]

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0cNhp...

[Erin]

I just wish she hadn't asked me

[Erin]

because I'm not the only suicidal kid she has

[Erin]

she should have learned something

[Erin]

why did she ask me

[Erin]

why hasn't she learned

[Erin]

I'm still trying to get to used to the fact that nobody will ever hate me or love me the way that I do

[Erin]

Ahhhhhhhh

[Erin]

Im angry

[Erin]

and sad

[Erin]

and sick

[Erin]

and scared

[Erin]

I feel like I'm losing it

[Erin]

hi

[Erin]

im sad again

[Erin]

how are you?

[Erin]

I'm falling

[Erin]

spiraling into a sea of sadness

[Erin]

I'm drowning and still I'm tugging at my arms instead of grasping for someone to hold on to

[Erin]

don't grab my hand

[Erin]

don't force me to stop picking at my skin

[Erin]

if you touch me you'll die

[Erin]

you'll drown too

[Erin]

because everybody I love keeps dying

[Erin]

so let me die too

[Erin]

I'm going to fail school

[Erin]

I want to kill myself still

[Erin]

again and again and again

[Erin]

over and over and over

[Erin]

help.

[Erin]

i am screaming help me help me help me

[Erin]

and my mom doesn't hear me

[Erin]

she doesn't hear anything

[Erin]

i wish she would see me

[Erin]

I feel sick

[Erin]

I don't want to eat but I keep eating junk food as if that will make me feel better

[Erin]

I feel like shit

[Erin]

I am shit

[Erin]

I can't get over this

[Erin]

I can't breathe

[Erin]

I miss my mom

[Erin]

but I've lost her