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[Erin]

wtf

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finally got him to stop lol

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now we're playing around haha

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he's cute when he's not whining all the time

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this song is how I feel about my mom rn

youtube.com/watch?v=k9-viYySSdE

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I feel sad again

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whoops

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youtube.com/watch?v=Ul9vuBhcRwU

and this one is how I feel about my sister that's also my best friend

[Erin]

and this one about my brother

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9oJJG...

[Erin]

I think I'm falling off the deep end

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no matter which way I go

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it's like I'm turning in circles

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and everywhere there's a cliff

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and for every voice that says jump

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for every thought that says go kill yourself

[Erin]

go kill yourself now you know there's nothing left for you to do

[Erin]

for every voice, every thought I'm still screaming

[Erin]

trying to fight it all

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by forcing another step to be taken

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and it's hard

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when I feel guilty all the time

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and like I'm about to fall

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even when I try to soar

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because I'll never be able to fly

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as freely as I want to

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I'm trapped in my mind

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and it's a scary place

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but I'll be alright

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I'll be okay

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I'll move on and keep going until one day I can say that I feel safe

[Erin]

I kinda am missing something I thought I'd never want

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a senior year with friends

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all my friends feel so far away

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I miss them

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I miss everybody

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I feel so alone

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but at the same time I feel like I'm choking on everybody else

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like there's so many people who care about me

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and are around me

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and who love me

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and I feel like I'm suffocating on their love

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and it's like I'm constantly hurting myself to keep everybody from leaving me

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and I keep screwing up

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and I feel so

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so

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I don't even know

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my mom asked me what to say to her suicidal sister

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and I hated that

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it was terrible

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because I never had someone