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[Erin]

I just wanted to be able to breathe in my own home

[Erin]

I can't work rn because my ankle is broken

[Erin]

I can't go anywhere except apparently school tomorrow

[Erin]

and that's really going to suck

[Erin]

and it's just like

[Erin]

she asks me why

[Erin]

why i want to kill myself

[Erin]

and all i keep thinking is why don't i

[Erin]

and I'm trying so hard to get over this

[Erin]

to live for everybody else

[Erin]

because there's no way I'll be able to live for myself

[Erin]

but I don't know what to do

[Erin]

because I can't even work on school

[Erin]

because she makes me feel like shit

[Erin]

and she's not even in the same room as me

[Erin]

that's messed up

[Erin]

but i don't say any of this because i'm not an asshole

[Erin]

i called her a shitty mom but i could've said so much worse

[Erin]

my mom was just like "i know high school sucks but I've been there" talking about my sister talking about dropping out

[Erin]

but she dropped out

[Erin]

because she got pregnant

[Erin]

and couldn't handle it

[Erin]

and like i get that and shit

[Erin]

i get that she went through shit

[Erin]

but try to inspire her to stay in without pretending like your some success she can look up to

[Erin]

i love her but fucking damn im so pissed

[Erin]

Erin wrote: "i love her but fucking damn im so pissed"

Hahahaha I didn't know what I knew know

[Erin]

I don't think I love her anymore

[Erin]

I'm disgusted

[Erin]

I feel sick

[Erin]

I can't talk to her without wanting to slap her

[Erin]

Or worse

[Erin]

Can I do worse

[Erin]

I think I could

[Erin]

Shit

[Erin]

I can't be this

[Erin]

I need help

[Erin]

No

[Erin]

Im okay

[Erin]

I'm okay

[Erin]

I am okay

[Erin]

I am okay.

[Erin]

I am

[Erin]

I am

[Erin]

I am

[Erin]

No

[Erin]

I'm not

[Erin]

You are

[Erin]

Kill her

[Erin]

Shut up