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since it was released

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and I'm still at a standstill hahaha

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I'm not crying, you're crying

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I'm laughing

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hi me and my annoying ass are back

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apologies

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I'm kinda surprised it's letting me type now

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It had stopped again

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okay but so a guy on snapchat asked me what i looked like

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and i was like oh i bet this is a fuckboy

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he ended up asking me if i was innocent

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so i was like bye bitch

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and he was just like okay um

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I try to give people a chance to not be assholes and they keep disappointing

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lmao

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I'm kinda sad

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I wish there were more good people

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How did I ever fall in love so easily

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I mean she was nothing like them

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and it was all unexpected

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but still

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falling in love with her was the most unlike me thing I've ever done

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falling in love with her was the most unlike me thing I've ever done

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but I've never felt more like myself than when I was talking to her

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I wish I wasn't the way I am

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I wish I didn't make bold decisions

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but I wish I made braver decisions

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I wish I was strong enough

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it's unfair

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i hate this

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i hate me

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and I'm angry because I still fucking miss her

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and I wish she would come back

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and I wish I n ever said I loved her

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I wish I had known better

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we were kids

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we're still kids

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we have an entire lifetime ahead of us and she didn't have to know all of my thoughts

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I should have known better

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I should have held everything back and waited

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but then

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maybe I wouldn't be here now

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but maybe she would have

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it's bad

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everything in my head is really bad right now

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because that's the way I get

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and I never should have said I love you when I can't even say those words to myself

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I hate that

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this

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me