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[Erin]

and who I was

[Erin]

and I'm going to find that person and become the better version of them because that's who I wanna be

[Erin]

I'm going to stop going to the hospital every couple of months just because I can't seem to handle anything and I'm going to get my shit together

[Erin]

I'm turning 18 this year

[Erin]

I just need to get through the next five months and then I can prove myself wrong

[Erin]

Lillian wrote: "Erin wrote: "and I don't know if that even makes sense"

It makes sense"

Thanks :)

[Erin]

and once I prove myself wrong I'll realize that I've been wrong a lot

[Erin]

and then I'll be able to accept that I'm going to keep messing up

[Erin]

and that that's okay

[Erin]

and that I'm okay

[Erin]

and everything will just be fucking fine

[Erin]

so uh yeah

[Erin]

that's my plan

[Erin]

lol

[Erin]

and if my friend wants to leave me on read and make me anxious after all these years I'm just gonna accept that that's what she does

[Erin]

and if my mom is going to yell at me I'm going to listen

[Erin]

and if my brother is going to refuse to talk about his feelings I'll remind him he has them

[Erin]

and that everything is gonna be

[Erin]

okay

[Erin]

or maybe even better

[Erin]

but I'll look toward it being okay

[Erin]

because okay is enough

[Erin]

and if it's not okay well that's okay too

[Erin]

ahhhhhhh

[Erin]

Lillian wrote: "Erin wrote: "that's my plan"

Our plans sound very similar lol"

THAT MEANS WE'RE BRILLIANT HAHAHA

[Erin]

Lillian wrote: "Erin wrote: "Lillian wrote: "Erin wrote: "that's my plan"

Our plans sound very similar lol"

THAT MEANS WE'RE BRILLIANT HAHAHA"

YEP! XD"

YAY :D

[Erin]

I'm failing all my class but still everything is okay

[Erin]

Imma be fine

[Erin]

I'll deal

[Erin]

I'm chillin

[Erin]

my sister is having health problems tho

[Erin]

and I'm lowkey not so lowkey worried

[Erin]

my mom thinks she's having a miscarriage

[Erin]

she hasn't went to the doctor yet though

[Erin]

and there's technically a lot of other things it could be

[Erin]

my mom is going to try to get a job

[Erin]

which I'm kinda

[Erin]

well more than kinda

[Erin]

okay so like really really really

[Erin]

worried

[Erin]

Lillian wrote: "Erin wrote: "my mom thinks she's having a miscarriage"

Oh, no"

yeah :/ I'm trying to hope for the best so I'm hoping her period is just messed up

[Erin]

she has a lot of problems with her period regularly

[Erin]

but it's like worse

[Erin]

and I don't know if she's on birth control still

[Erin]

but last I heard she wasn't

[Erin]

ahhhhhh

[Erin]

yay

[Erin]

goodreads stopped letting me comment again last night

[Erin]

is anyone else having this problem??

[Erin]

I just want to read a really good book