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[Erin]

it really is

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and I used to hate when people would say it

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but I'm starting to understand what they meant

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and I just feel like really okay and happy and for once i feel sane

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and I can't tell you how good that feels

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but when you spend so much time struggling with self-love and even just self-care it feels good when you don't

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I feel alive

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like I'm not just living because I feel like I have to

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but because I want to

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Ayyyy

[Erin]

I'm sad today

[Erin]

That's about it

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Yesterday wasn't too good either

[Erin]

Jan 1st though was actually good

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But im just feeling crappy

[Erin]

My sister showed up here out of nowhere

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She left pretty quickly too

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She came for money that our mom didn't have on her

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And left with two loafs of bread

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I have a really bad migraine

[Erin]

My school's pissed me off

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Nobody will fucking talk to me

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Its honestly pissing me off

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My family i mean

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Everyone is just away

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Or talking to someone else

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Like we shouldn't have to force each other to spend time together

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I want to leave this place

[Erin]

Its making me feel worse

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And school starts back this week

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Im so stressed

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And my friend reads my messages

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And doesn't say anything

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And it's making me anxious

[Erin]

and just more annoyed

[Erin]

hi

[Erin]

I'm okay

[Erin]

I'm really okay

[Erin]

and that's enough

[Erin]

enough for me at least

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like I'm kind of subtly sad

[Erin]

and I don't know if that even makes sense

[Erin]

because I'm not bad

[Erin]

and I'm not good

[Erin]

and I'm not happy

[Erin]

and I'm not 100% sad

[Erin]

my mom needs me to be okay

[Erin]

so I'm going to be okay

[Erin]

I'm going to go back to what I used to do

[Erin]

and how I used to be