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trying to feel like me again
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Erin
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Oct 27, 2020 06:54AM
I've been avoiding that conversation because a friend said I should talk to them first before I have the conversation with this other person but like my friend doesn't really understand because she isn't in the position i'm in and yet I know she's felt the way i've felt because we talked about it a long time ago
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Erin wrote: "she wrote a good series but the magic has faded and we can see her for who she really is"yeah, i loved harry potter a lot, in the past, but now, after everything with jk rowling, i just slowly started losing interest in harry potter, and now i just, i can't stand jk rowling, i can't look at harry potter without thinking of her. like this book series i loved at some point is ruined because of her.
if it weren't for percy jackson, i probably wouldn't have known what to do. i'm just glad pjo is in my life
BUT HI ERIN, IT'S BEEN A WHILE AND I MISSED YOU!!
Erin wrote: "Ahhh that's another thing i need to get back on!!!"also i made a new twitter account a while back. it's @spideraspecpjo
Alex ~They/them~ ~Annabeth Chase and Alex Fierro are the best~ wrote: "Erin wrote: "Ahhh that's another thing i need to get back on!!!"also i made a new twitter account a while back. it's @spideraspecpjo"
Oooh I'll add you when I'm on my phone later (on school computer right now lol)
Alex ~They/them~ ~Annabeth Chase and Alex Fierro are the best~ wrote: "BUT HI ERIN, IT'S BEEN A WHILE AND I MISSED YOU!!"HIIIII!!!!! OMG IT HAS AND I MISS YOU SO MUCH!!!!!!
Alex ~They/them~ ~Annabeth Chase and Alex Fierro are the best~ wrote: "Erin wrote: "she wrote a good series but the magic has faded and we can see her for who she really is"yeah, i loved harry potter a lot, in the past, but now, after everything with jk rowling, i j..."
right!!!! and that's literally how I feel!!!
ahh I miss pjo and just Rick Riordan's books- they're the best diverse thing and always make me happy while still making me cry lmao
Sorry I responded backwards- that was really weird of me and I'm not sure why I did that haha
Erin wrote: "I've been avoiding that conversation because a friend said I should talk to them first before I have the conversation with this other person but like my friend doesn't really understand because she..."I still haven't had this conversation lmao
1 of ???
I must be a fool because I'm still in love with you.
I tried to convince myself it wasn't true but it was and it is.
I was stupid and told you everything-
I threw everything into the air, straight at you, but I didn't expect you to be the type to just run and dodge it.
I mean we made promises, we had goals and plans and ideas.
We were friends before anything else so why? Why did you just leave me without anything?
I told you I didn't need you to feel the same way- I just needed you to know because keeping it a secret didn't feel fair anymore but you could've said something, said goodbye. And tell me that the reason you left was because of me. I wish I knew that it was because of me.
Because you forget yourself.
You forget that I know you. I know that you're not always happy and full of energy and I know you feel depressed even though your parents and doctors all seem to deny it- I know that you weren't okay and that's why I need to know if it was me and my words that pushed you away or if one day you decided you were just so fucking tired of the internet that you deleted everything.
I just want to know if you're alive.
I understand if you hate me because trust me when I say there is no way you could hate me more than I do. I've known myself longer and I'm the one who has to deal with all my stupid crazy ass thoughts, so you could've told me you hated me and that you never wanted to talk to me again and I would have understood. But not knowing anything, not knowing if this was your decision, if you even saw my message, if you were even who you said you were- it's making me go crazy.
Maybe that's what you wanted. But it's not easy to forget you and I don't think you knew that when you decided to leave because I spend every day thinking of you, and I tried for the longest time to make myself forget you but I can't and I don't want to anymore.
Because I still love you, despite all the hell you've put me through.
And I think I always will.
Erin wrote: " Alex ~They/them~ ~Annabeth Chase and Alex Fierro are the best~ wrote: "Erin wrote: "Ahhh that's another thing i need to get back on!!!"also i made a new twitter account a while back. it's @spide..."
yay!!
Erin wrote: " Alex ~They/them~ ~Annabeth Chase and Alex Fierro are the best~ wrote: "Erin wrote: "she wrote a good series but the magic has faded and we can see her for who she really is"yeah, i loved harry p..."
yeah, same!!
also what's your twitter again?
Alex ~They/them~ ~Annabeth Chase and Alex Fierro are the best~ wrote: "also what's your twitter again?"@APoeticWannabee
Alex ~They/them~ ~Annabeth Chase and Alex Fierro are the best~ wrote: "Erin wrote: " Alex ~They/them~ ~Annabeth Chase and Alex Fierro are the best~ wrote: "Erin wrote: "she wrote a good series but the magic has faded and we can see her for who she really is"yeah, i ..."
I think a good Riordan book is what I need to get out of my book slump
Hi all! I'm doing a survey for school on whether transgender students should be able to use their preferred restroom and I'd appreciate it if you'd vote on it! When it asks how you found the survey, please put my name (Erin) on it. Also, please make sure you answer all required questions and make sure ypur responses are appropriate. (I hate that I have to add that but people have already wrote inappropriate things. I understand wanting privacy but nobody else can see your answers so please make sure you give at least a first name. Thanks! https://docs.google.com/forms/d/e/1FA...
Erin wrote: " Alex ~They/them~ ~Annabeth Chase and Alex Fierro are the best~ wrote: "also what's your twitter again?"@APoeticWannabee"
i followed!! also my partner is there so you'll get to meet her!!
Alex ~They/them~ ~Annabeth Chase and Alex Fierro are the best~ wrote: "Erin wrote: " Alex ~They/them~ ~Annabeth Chase and Alex Fierro are the best~ wrote: "also what's your twitter again?"@APoeticWannabee"
i followed!! also my partner is there so you'll get to meet..."
yay!! awe yay!!!
Lillian wrote: "Erin wrote: " Alex ~They/them~ ~Annabeth Chase and Alex Fierro are the best~ wrote: "Erin wrote: " Alex ~They/them~ ~Annabeth Chase and Alex Fierro are the best~ wrote: "Erin wrote: "she wrote a go..."RIGHT?!
so I'm about to have a breakdown. how fun.
but if she had lied to me and I found out about it later I'd still feel as I do now only I'd be a lot more pissed
and she made sure we got out of that whole situation
why am I the fucked up one who can't remember shit but still claims to be hurt and sick and to have trauma
See I fucking hate myself for even thinking this and for feeling this way
and I'm way too stubborn to take it back so now I'm trying to convince myself I didn't mean it or if I did mean it I understand why I do
Alex ~They/them~ ~Annabeth Chase and Alex Fierro are the best~ wrote: "*hugs tight*"*hugs back* Thanks <3
so I feel like I have a lot I need/want to talk about and never enough time
i have a birth father who is trying to get into my life
it's personal
Books mentioned in this topic
30 Things I Love About Myself (other topics)Challenger Deep (other topics)
Throes (other topics)
P.S. I Still Love You (other topics)
Delirium (other topics)
